IF YOU ONLY KNEW

IF YOU ONLY KNEW

If you only knew the smile I wear is fake
I'm truly filled with sadness and self hate
I hate being something that I'm truly not
My emotions feel like they have been shot

If you only knew that I lie about how I feel
That when I say I'm fine, that's not real
I'm far from fine, I feel like I'm dying inside
From an endless pain I try so hard to hide

If you only knew how I felt about you
Is the reason why I feel the way I do
I know we will never be anything more than friends
Which is why I can never be happy again.
© 2012 Darryl Mouzone