Tales From My Imagination: October 2013

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

STRAWBERRY BLONDE

So you have come to trust ruin my day
As I'm trying to relax and enjoy my day off
But that's not happening, please go away
I say your name like an old nagging cough
I was once fooled by you, I was that dumb
I thought that there really was something once
But now for you, my feelings have become numb
You're not playing me again like I'm some kind of dunce
I fell for those slick lines that you once used
Thinking that we were really going to be together
But you turned around and hurt me, left me feeling abused
I cut you off, I'm done with you forever
So now you text me to say you're engaged
After what you've done, do you think I care?
I'm not your little pet that you can lock in a cage
Your words are a toxin that poisons the very air
You hurt me several times, I'm not falling for this again
I moved on in life, please leave me alone
You broke my heart, we will never be friends.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

FUTURE REGRETS

I see in these darkened halls my future before me
Looking through this glass that's broken and stained
There I am and I'm as lonely as could be
It looks like a future with heartbreak and pain
Looking at the past, seeing if I could have done more
Maybe things wouldn't have to be this way
I'd I only told her she was what I was living for
I stayed quiet when she became engaged
As I had a fake smile on my face on her wedding day
And in the future I'm sad and alone, occupying space
Drowning in my sorrow and slowly wasting away
Wondering at the possibilities that could have been
Why didn't I say something when I had the chance?
I merely said goodbye when I should have poured out my heart
It's my fault I'm alone in this cold corner stand
And it feels as if my soul has been torn apart
He was the brave one I was just a coward
As I looked back at my lonely life
I would be hand in hand with her at this hour
If I told her everything that eventful night
But of course I blew it, I should have known
A loser is what I am as I hide the tears in the rain
And now I walk off, hurting as I make my way home
As I flushed my entire life straight down the drain
My future self believes that love is nothing but malarkey
Overwhelmed by sadness, I could have been him
As I have future regrets as I look through a glass darkly
©2013 Darryl Mouzon

ALONE IN MY WAKING NIGHTMARE

Here I am, in the dark, thinking of her again Knowing she never thinks of me this way
The pain cuts deep, feelings I wish would end
Wishing these memories would just fade away
The stars of the night and moon is the only light I see
Thinking too much about something that's impossible
I wish I could run away from these feelings inside of me
But I can't, my emotions are unstoppable
I wish I never looked into her eyes, as beautiful as they are
I wish I never heard her voice, that stops the constant pain
I look down at my arm that has numerous scars
Having feelings that just can't be explained
The muted sounds of cars passing by breaks the silence
This pen feels like a thousand pounds in my hand
I'm a sad fool, stranded on my own solitary island.
This void that longs to be filled I can no longer stand
Wanting something I will never have, the story of my life
I should have never let my guard down and let her in
Constant regrets haunt me as my mind wanders off in the night
The feelings of worthlessness slowly start to begin
I'm so stupid, I know no woman wants a beast
Then painful truth sends me deeper into despair
The night goes on as the sadness continues to increase
As I silently plead for the ending of this waking nightmare.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE RAGE OF A FOOL (THE CONFRONTATION)

He's frustrated, he can no longer hold it back
Tired of being pushed, he's on the attack
Tired of being the nice guy, he becomes so mean
Everything is moving so slow, like it's a dream
They pushed him too far, blaming him for something he didn't do
He replies in anger, and his boss yells at him too
He's told to go to the main office and wait
The only thoughts in his mind were pure anger and hate
Another manager came in as his boss tells the story
A story that was wrong that only made him more stormy
He wasn't allowed to talk, they told him to go home
He always knew in this life he was all alone
Anger wells up and he stares at the books on the shelf
In a rage he gets up and says he's going to kill himself.
He storms out the building with managers in pursuit
He peels out of the place as he's anger goes through the roof
He makes it home as he contemplates suicide
He probably lost his job, he's really done it this time
Punching walls in rage until his knuckles bled
He truly has nothing now, he wishes he was dead
Calls from work went on unanswered and ignored
His only reason for living is gone, he can't take it anymore
On the verge of falling away forever and losing his mind
He dials the number of a suicide hotline
He grabs a knife and slowly digs it in his wrist
There's no reason to live, no reason to exist
Slowly they talk him out of death somehow
With his job in limbo, what is he going to do now?
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE MISTS OF EVANSKASKIA

As it rises off of the Healing Lakes and slowly rolls through the land
Covering everything until one can barely see
You're fortunate if you can see your hand
Or someone ahead of you a few feet
The mists drown out sounds, covers all in cloudy silence
There's no telling what is coming your way
It brings peace and calm to even the most violent
The visions of thousands of years of history float past
Before the lands split in the Age of Wizards
When Tamarosa was mighty before it became outcast
Before the towers of ice became that way due to endless blizzards
The mists bring back history that was once thought lost
Many untold tales that were never written in books
The creation of the Stone of Galderissia and the damaging cost
When Crenwell was full of life and had babbling brooks
Everyone in the land stands still as voices cry out
Of the pain of the wars that have once taken place
When Ausorion created the sword and defeated more men than he could count
And his love, Ameria with her dark hair and Goddess like face
The age when dragons rode the sky with humans on them
And the Dragon Prince Edimar rode on his mighty red dragon Flame
And conqured the darkness that only sought to end life
And many rose to the fight on behalf of his name
Before the entire world was thrown into eternal night
And when the sun rose high in the sky, just like that it was gone
The history of the past and all was normal once again
The people broke out of their haze and life went on
The farmers went to work as the sellers went on selling to no end
The memories evaporate but come back again the next morning
But the people of Evanskanskia are used to living this way
The mists of the past stand to serve as a warning
Forget what has happened before could end everything today.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

CALM IN A STORM

Raging and screaming are heard through the place
He's lost his temper and he's getting in my face
All because he couldn't get one simple discount
And to get what he wanted he had to pay the full amount
It's not my fault, I don't make the company rules
You have no right to yell at me and call me a fool
If this happened years ago, I would have been screaming too
At the top of my lungs I would be scraming: "Fuck you!"
But I have changed since then and I have became much calmer
As he rages in, his words don't touch me in my armor
I let him rage and reply with kind words
I could have told him what I thought he deserved
But no longer will I get upset over something so small
He's the one who really looks like a fool in this mall.
As he finally storms away, I just had to laugh it off
As he marched off with a huff and a scoff.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

TAKE THE WEIGHT

I can take the anger and take the tears
Cry all you want on my shoulder without fear
I'll wipe them away and take all your pain
I would do it for you and would never complain
I'll be there for you when the rest of the world turns away
Forever loyal and promise to never stray
Give me a chance, I'll prove I'll be true to you I'll support you in everything that you do
Tell me everything, I will sit down and listen
You'll become the whole reason for my existence
When you can't go on, I will carry you in my arms
Keep you safe from any and all arms
I'll be there and carry everything that you hate
I'll do it for you because I can take the weight.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

UNTITLED

Swimming in a pool of beauty that are your eyes
A living paradise, even the Gods would call you divine
The stars themselves would never outshine your smile
To see it, I would walk for days on end and travel many miles
Across the table you sit and talk, I hang on to every word
I should tell you how I feel but I don't have the nerve.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WEARING THE RING FOR YOU

I swore I would never be in this position again
To be a slave, sent away once again
Mistress Denna put me in a world of pain
A Mord Sith put me through horrors I can never explain
You told me it would be good for me, I believe you my love
You were sent to save me by the spirits above
Sent away to the towers, being led like a slave
Where I'll be told how I should behave
I gave you everything, you have it all
When I was in pain, it was your name I would call
And just like that, you have sent me away
When I want to be with you until the end of my days
What's going to happen to me, no one wants to go through
But you must know that I'm only doing it for you
The Steel ring feels cold as it's wrapped around my neck
The fears have come back when I was near death
You yelled at me to so this, I just don't understand
Why would you send me away to a far away land?
You said you loved me, I don't feel that now
But someway I know we'll be together somehow
I can't look back at you, my heart will be broken
I can't look back, so my feelings will be left unspoken
I leave with this sister of light so lost and confused
Feeling helpless once again, not knowing what to do
I am be gone forever but what I may go through
Remember that I put on that steel ring only for you.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WISHING UPON A STAR

As I see a star streak across the sky
I'm wishing upon it with a long sigh
Wishing for one day I'll find someone
Before my heart becomes cold and numb
Maybe that wish is a little far fetched
But I still wish as I hope for rest
The "joy" of being single sucks to me
Feeling sick and tired of feeling so lonely
No possibilities exist, there will never be a chance
I'm just a lonely wallflower who will never be asked to dance
All the wishing in the world will never change this fate
I'll be alone forever, it's all too late.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DEATH BY DOG FARTS

As I layer myself down to get some sleep
A horrendous smell in my nose did seep
It smelled like something died in the house
I had to investigate and then find out
Where this horrible smell was coming from
The smell started after the setting of the sun
I went downstairs and the smell got worse
So overpowering, it was the worst smell on earth
There was a green cloud in the air like some kind of death fog
And there I see, the wagging tail of my dog
It came from him, my loyal little beagle
This smell emitted from him could literally kill people
It was a cold night but the windows were wide open
To air out the house from the smell, so potent
Besides, that's not the way that I would want to depart
That would be a bad way to go, death by dog farts.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

CRIES FROM BEYOND THE ICE (THE TOWERS OF ICE)

The cries are becoming louder now
He can hear them as clear as day
He has to find her in this place somehow
Or she'll become a part of the ice decay
He goes deeper and deeper into the tower
He makes his way up the endless winding stairs
He can feel the presence of the immense power
That made this tower and it raises his hairs
He sees the remains of those who have came
But never made it out alive
He understands that is fate could be the very same
But he pushes those thoughts aside
After what seems like an eternity, he reaches the top
And now he sees a long hallway, dark and empty
Fear grips him but he knows he can't stop
As he hears sounds that don't seem too friendly
He takes out his sword, ready for what may attack
As he makes his way to the sound of that voice
He can see nothing but pitch black
And hears a strange scraping noise
He sees something in the shadows in front of him
A beast that looks half man, half something else
It had sharp claws extending from its limbs
With is sword raised he looks down within himself
Shaking with fear, it seems the future looks grim
As the beast advances and doesn't feel pain with every strike dealt
He might end up like the others as scattered remains on the ground
He's fighting back and nothing seems to take effect
The beast remains silent and only let's out a hissing sound
Making him shake as he felt its icy breath
He still hears her but all hope might be lost
He's getting tired and he doesn't know what to do
Maybe he should have thought this out and counted the cost
Before he went on this mission, he should have thought it through
But now it's too late, he might die in these icy walls
As the beast jumps on him hard enough to make his ears ring
But still, he could still hear the woman's pleading calls
As the claws dig into his skin, he heard the fairies sing......
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

EVERYTHING ABOUT HER

She smelled like a mix of cinnamon and ivory soap
A beautiful scent that smelled like heaven
She had sparkling eyes that gave me hope
And the pain inside of me began to lessen
She had a smile that could warm the coldest night
It made me smile too and put me at ease
She had a laugh that gave the world life
And put my worries far behind and I was at peace
She had a mind that could set the world afire
A rebellious soul is what she had inside
An entire nation she would be able to inspire
But it's just us here in this field open wide
It wasn't the way she looked
It wasn't her body shape
It was more what she learned in books
That made her so great
It wasn't the color of her hair
That her look like a queen
It was how she warmed the air
With heat shimmering around her like a dream
It was everything about her
That made me write this poem
It was everything about her
That gave me feelings she'll never know.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HERE I STAND

I'm here for you, with an outreached hand
I see you're down, I'm here to help you stand
Grab my hand, get up and come with me
We'll struggle together, our lives won't be problem free
But we can lean on each other when the bad days come
We can fight the darkness together and unite as one
You are lost, but so am I
I'll do my best to wipe away the tears you cry
To do the silly things I know will make you laugh
And they to make the hurt and pain a thing of the past
I'm here, promising to be by your side
Showing you who I am, I have nothing to hide
I'm reaching out for you, please give me a chance
I'm not the average guy who only wants to get in your pants
I don't play games that so many others play
I'll let my actions speak more than my words could say
But here I stand, ready to lift you off the floor
To show you love until you can't remember pain anymore.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

CATFISHED

She said she loved me
She sent me pictures
She was beautiful
She said the sweetest words
I would long to chat with her
She said we would meet one day
A day I was waiting for
Then she asked for money
Something seemed wrong
I had a bad feeling about this
And I knew something was up
It was all just a trick
Just a scam, to bleed me dry
I almost fell for it
So desperate to finally find love
I almost fell for it
What a lonely loser I truly am
I deserve this
I deserve the pain
I deserve the sadness
I deserve the letdowns
I deserve the disappointments
I'm nothing but a fool
Forever alone is all I'll ever be
And that's what I deserve.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

PATHETIC

No one will ever want me
Alone us all I'll ever be
I'm just a useless soul
Who will never be whole
I'm tired of this feeling
While staring at the ceiling
And the depression consumes
Knowing this will be my doom
Silence as a clock ticks away
I really don't want to start the day
On to work, no one says goodbye
I'm trying to hide the tears in my eyes
Same shift, everything's the same
As I wear a badge that says my name
People ask why I have such a sad face
I fake a smile to pretend I love this place
Another day done, now it's back to home
Eating with the TV on all alone
No one tells me how my day was
This is what a loser like me does
So pathetic, but this is my life
This is why I'm always sad inside
I know that this sadness will never end
It's going to be an ongoing trend.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

NO THANKS

I don't know who you are
Where you come from
You could be from mars
But no thanks, I'm done
I'm not that desperate for female attention
To chat with someone I don't know
I know nothing of your intentions
So goodbye, I'm going to just go.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE HORROR IN THE FITTING ROOM

I only want to do my job
I didn't sign up for this
Now my sleep will be robbed
My memory is beaten with a wisk
I should have knocked
Before I opened that door
But my eyes were rocked
For the horror in store
All I could say was damn
This isn't what I wanted to see
I didn't want to see another naked man
Why did this have to happen to me?
Slamming the door, running out
Coworker laughs like it's funny
A high pitched screech escapes my mouth
This definitely isn't worth the money
As he walks out, I can't look at him the same
We both ignore what happened earlier
As people stare at me like I'm in insane
Afraid to go back in as the fitting room gets dirtier
I just want to go home and forget this day
That was the figurative icing on the cake
Silent until the day ends, had nothing to say
I don't know how much more of this job I can take.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

EATING THE PAIN AWAY

Go ahead and eat some more, you fat fuck
Look at you, you wonder why you're so alone?
Stop stuffing your face, it's so disgusting, yuck!
That's why a lonely life is all you've ever known!

Food doesn't reject me, it takes away my pain
It's the one thing that makes me feel good inside
It never laughs at me, it never calls me names
Because of my eating I'll probably die

Go ahead and eat some more, that's why you're ugly
Don't cry and ask: "How come no woman loves me?"
Eat more junk food to fill that empty void
When you hear fat jokes, don't get all mad and annoyed

I eat more and more and I feel so ashamed
I can't stop myself, it's hard to explain
It's the only time that I don't feel so stressed
I'm so screwed up in the head and my life is a mess

Here we go again, you're feeling sorry for yourself
Eating like this is doing major damage to your health
You're going to die young and you don't even care
Killing your mind and body, now is what you're doing fair?

I can't help it, it will always be this way
This eating monster inside of me is here to stay
No one understands how screwed up I really am
I'm just a fat, worthless, broken down man.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THIS SHALLOW SOCIETY

In this shallow society I'll never fit in
I'll always be on the bottom and I'll never win
They say it's not just about looks
But I only see beautiful people in magazines and books
I never see someone look like me on a TV show
I never see someone like me take a lead role I never see people like me married to the love of their lives
They stay out of the limelight and continue to hide
Because we're not wanted in this shallow society
No one wants anything to do with someone like me
I know it's true, I don't fall for the lies
That it's not about looks, it's about what's inside
It's a nice little line that never works in reality
You can be nice but shunned if you have a physical abnormality
You'll be called a loser if you live paycheck to paycheck
Even though your workload has you breaking your neck
I'm not meant to live in this shallow society
I just want to break away from this world and finally be free.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone