I WISH I KNEW

I WISH I KNEW

I wish I knew what it was like to be wanted
For someone to love me and feel needed
But that will never happen and I'll always be haunted
By the ghost of misery, one I should have heeded

I wish I knew what it was like to feel
I have no feelings, my heart is numb
I have developed a wall of pure steel
And it opens up for no one

I wish I knew what it was like to feel affection
To finally have something worth living for
So much sadness has been in my direction
I don't think I can smile anymore

I wish I knew what it was like to laugh
To enjoy a walk in the park with someone
To hold her hand as others walked past
And I felt the warmth of the beautiful sun

I wish I didn't feel so alone
Every day passes by, nothing changes
A broken man in an empty home
Silence rules the air, heavy and tainted

I wish I could find beauty within myself
Instead of finding nothing worthwhile inside Until I find it, I can't be with anyone else
That's why I'll always be alone until the day I die.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone