ALONE IN THE SHADOWS

ALONE IN THE SHADOWS

The sun shines on everyone except me
This eternal sadness is all I seem to see
I don't know why but I can't love myself
I'm like a lonely book on an empty shelf
I wish I could push these thoughts away
But like mold, it seems to grow and decay
I push and push but they keep coming back
Until the shadows come and shroud me in black
All the negative thoughts come like a tidal wave
Knocking me down when I tried to be brave
No one can help me, I'm all alone
Unable to cry or scream, I only moan
Feeling detached from the world which is so beautiful
I don't belong in it, I'm too ugly and pitiful

A worthless soul that no one will ever love
The shadow conquered me again, like it always does
I put on a fake smile but the sadness still reigns
Can't wait to get home so I can stop smiling again
And pour out my pain in written words
Until it becomes a sea of sorrow, regret and hurt
The shadows are here right along with me
In my misery they seem to laugh with glee
Wanting and waiting for something that will never come
I only want to feel and be loved by someone
To have that one chance to find another lonely soul
To grow with until the days we become old
But I'll grow old alone and this I know
The darkness in these shadows is all I'll ever hold
No more tears, I have ran out of them to cry
I have cried until my ducts have gone dry
I guess I must embrace these lonely shadows
But it hurts, like being shot through with an arrow
I must get used to the pain, I will have it for life
I'll never see the sun and my days will be as dark as night.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE END (THE BATTLE IS LOST)

THE END (THE BATTLE IS LOST)

I tried to fight but in the end, I lost
The monster inside showed who was boss I give in to the craving, only eating more
Knowing the consequences that lie in store
I can't stop myself, I have tried and tried
Food is my comfort and I know the reason why
It never calls me ugly, never calls me worthless
It never breaks my heart, calms me when I'm nervous
It never lies to me and makes me feel good
The monster inside won, like I knew it would
My cure for loneliness in mountains of calories
It consumes me inside, bring me to my knees
But it's all I have, the only thing to live for
But it's killing me inside, closing life's door
I know what's happening but I can't stop
For the life of me, I just can't stop.......
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

DON'T LEAVE ME

DON'T LEAVE ME

As you lie here dying in our bed
All I can do is hold your hand and weep
You were true with every word you said
You have my love and it's yours  to keep
The kingdom is rejoicing over the birth of our child
Even now she cries for the love of her mother
I beg you not to leave, stay here for awhile
You are my only love, I'll never find another
Your pulse is getting weak, the tears fall faster
I bring your hand to my lips and give it a kiss
Please open your eyes, don't let death be the master
The kingdom will morn for years over a loss like this
And I will be broken and never be the same
The world will become a barren wasteland
Please don't leave me, I beg of you in name
Without you I'll just be a hollow shell of a man
The people love you, as do I
You changed this king and made his life better
Because of you the sun shines brighter in the sky
My world was always bright even during stormy weather
Please, my dear queen don't leave me now
Our daughter and kingdom need you so
Don't leave me my love, fight through it somehow
The sun will never shine the same again if you do go.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE STORM ROLLS BACK IN

THE STORM ROLLS BACK IN

The sky was blue but the they're gray again
I thought this time the storm was at an end
I was wrong because now the storm is back
As the rain comes again and the thunder cracks
The feelings of worthless come rolling at me
The darkness again is the only thing I see
I'll never escape this prison that I'm now in
The negative thoughts now come from within
"You stupid fat fuck, no one will ever love you!"
"You're so worthless and there's nothing you can do!”
"Look at yourself, you're so disgusting and ugly"
These thoughts are right, no woman will ever love me
Dreams are just that, they will never come true
I will never in my life hear the words "I love you"
I will never know the feeling of a gentle loving touch
Even though it's the one thing I long for so much
The storm rages in and it's eating me alive
I thought it was gone and I left it all behind
But I was wrong because it's raging again
I guess this storm will never have an end.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

SOMEDAY, SHE WILL COME

SOMEDAY, SHE WILL COME

Someday she will walk into my life and all will be clear
All the darkness and pain she will push away
I will have a reason to smile when she comes near
She won't be a dream, she'll be real and here to stay

Someday she will be everything I have waited for
Someone who will accept me for who I am
That will make me stay true and stick to my words
Because of her I will become a better man

Someday she will come and I will know
Just by looking at her, she is the one
She will be surrounded by a beautiful glow
And a soul that shines brighter than the sun

Someday she will come and I will give her my heart
And she will give me hers in time
And with her I will always be and never part
And our souls will intertwine.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

JUST THE THOUGHT (RIDE THE SKY)

JUST THE THOUGHT (RIDE THE SKY)

Just the thought of your lips touching mine
Fills my soul with passion and desire
The thought of you ignites my mind
And spreads through my body like wildfire
The thought of you being so close to me
Feeling the warmth of your skin
Makes me feel so alive and free
I don't know where to begin
I won't feel the winter's cold tonight
You'll be keeping me warm
My cold heart melted and came to life
In the middle of an ice storm
You saw who I am but you didn't want to leave
That's truly a gift that I won't throw away
That thought alone fills me with such need
That you still wanted to stay
No more words, please come close to me
As the storm continues outside
You are perfect, the most beautiful thing I see
With you, I have nothing to hide
The world blinks away and I'm in yours
The stars of the universe shine a little brighter
Who knew for my sadness you would be the cure
My dark aura has now become lighter
If this is a dream, I never want it to end
As I'm falling into a pool of ecstasy
The broken pieces of my soul are beginning to mend
And all because you never rejected me
I'm giving everything to you
I'll stay right here by your side
To you I'll always be true
Because tonight, together we ride the sky.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HER BEAUTY

HER BEAUTY

She's so beautiful but she doesn't know
She thinks she's so ugly inside
I wish there was a way I could really show The beauty she has and why
Her beauty can't be seen by shallow people
Because it's very deep
The beauty she has, there is no equal
It makes my knees seem weak
It's not just her looks, it's who she is
That makes her shine like a star
I wish I could tell her words like this
But I only admire her from afar.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HOPE?

HOPE?

She knows I'm fat
She sees I'm ugly
The weird thing is that
She still loves me
She doesn't look away
She doesn't laugh
Here she stays
May these times last
What have I done
To deserve this luck
She is the one
That makes me tough
She sees my imperfections
And all of my cracks
She still shows me affection
I don't know what
She sees in me
I think I'm ugly but
She sees beauty in me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE WARRIOR WITHOUT A HEART (WINTER'S EDGE)

THE WARRIOR WITHOUT A HEART (WINTER'S EDGE)

The freezing rain pounds on his cloak
Soaking through and he's so soaked
He looked ahead and sees the frozen trees
Exhausted, he wants to fall to his knees
The cold embraces hum so he can forget
How his heart was ripped out without regret
He still thinks of her even though she doesn't care
Wishing she could still warm him in this cold air
But wishing is hopeless, that dream is gone
He will never love again from this point on
He can still remember those beautiful times
Those happy memories he replays in his mind
He could smile once, now he doesn't know
As he makes his way through ice and snow
He embraces the cold, he wants to feel numb
So he can escape the pain he has tried to run from
"Why, Nora, why did you do this to me?
You destroyed my heart, pain is all I can see! 
I loved you so much and was your first in command!
For loving you I have been banished from the land!
Now I have nothing, I'm just a broken soul!
Without you, I will never be whole!"
His words only bounce off the trees in an echo to no one
His words were only heard by him as he wishes for the sun
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE COLD, HIS LOVE

THE COLD, HIS LOVE

In the cold winds, he travels alone
This is the only way he has ever known
He has no heart, it has died long ago
So he enjoys the embrace of the ice and snow
His sword by his side, the cold is his best friend
Relentless, aggressive and knows no end
The companion to his loneliness, they make the perfect pair
As he stops to admire the frigid winter air
He feels alive now, at least there's that
Knowing that's all he'll ever have
His chances of love has come and gone
He wants to die but he must go on
The cold lovingly embraces him as he forgets his sadness
Soothes his pain and slow descent into madness
He thinks of the Queen who once crushed his heart
The day his hopes were blown apart
Ever since then he has wandered the Frozen lands
Fighting to protect himself with his sword in his hands
His only love now is the beautiful cold
His love that will only embrace him until I grow old.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WASTING AWAY

WASTING AWAY

Here he sits, in front if a TV
Along with others, waiting for death
Thinking to himself, ”Is this really me?”
Thinking about all of his past regrets
He was a strong young man once
Full of youth, had nothing but energy
The class clown, was always called a dunce
Always had fun, full of life was he
As he grew, he joined and fought overseas
And bombs rained down over his head
Chaos and war was all he could ever see
He survived it all and he was a hero, that's what they said
Time marched on, he came home and found a wife
Had the "dream", his kids and a white picket fence
The perfect job and that became the center of his life
Loyal to his only love as he wondered what life meant
Time kept marching on, and so did the cruel hands of fate
As he sobbed by his wife's bed
Losing her was almost too much to take
The one he lived for, full of life once was now dead
Crushed, they said he couldn't live alone
His own kids are telling him how to live?
He spent so many years out and on his own
The cruel hands of fate showed itself once again
He began to forget things and thought his wife was still alive
He woke up looking for her and she wasn't there
Where did his love go, she was always by his side
So he wandered out in the midnight winter air
The police found him wandering, not knowing where he was
His kids, worried for him decided to put him here
His past is clear but the present seems like static and fuzz
As he sits in front of the TV, filled with an unknown fear
Others are around him, does he know them at all?
What year is this?  Does he have to go to work?
What day is it again?  It's hard to recall
Where is his wife, the woman who could move heaven and earth?
The endless questions haunt him as he's a prisoner of his mind
Forgetting things as fast as he remembers
Slowly wasting away, until finally it's his time
As his memories fade away like dying embers.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HURTING A FRIEND

HURTING A FRIEND

It's the last thing I wanted to do
But that's exactly what I did
I trampled your feelings and hurt you
To turn back time, what I wouldn't give
Anyone else can say whatever
I would never care
But I hurt you and I'm hurt forever
With my head down, at the floor I stare
I didn't think about your feelings, I take the blame
I should have thought before I spoke
But like an idiot, I spread the flames
That almost smothered our friendship in thick black smoke
For that, I am sorry, I can't say it enough
Forgive a fool who spoke before he thought
Forgive a fool who think of consequences
Forgive a fool who did do what he ought
Forgive a fool whose spirits has diminished
I have a lot to learn and I know this is true
I'm willing to make changes to make things right
I'm so sorry for doing something stupid to hurt you
I swear I'll try to be a better friend in life.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE MYSTERIOUS WARRIOR FROM THE EAST (SOMEONE JOINS IN THE QUEST)

THE MYSTERIOUS WARRIOR FROM THE EAST (SOMEONE JOINS IN THE QUEST)

She takes up camp for the night
After a long day of travel, gets ready to sleep
Starts a fire and falls asleep with her knife Feeling comfortable from the fire's heat
Then she slowly falls into her dreams
When she was can in the golden towers
When she took the oath of silence for her queen
Where she trained and got her strength and power
Her last world's were: "I won't speak until this is done
By the might of the Gods that reside in Illsidrin
From the morning light until the setting of the sun
I won't speak until this quest comes to an end."
And just like that, she was off on her way
Going across the world to stop ultimate evil
She leaves the golden towers that glimmer in the sun
Saying nothing to those she has left behind
Silently leaving Illsidrin without saying a word to anyone
Not knowing if she'll come back to see them another time
A rustle in the bushes wakes her up in her up and she's up in her feet
Half asleep but sword already in hand
She sees someone else with his sword ready and unsheathed
She wonders to herself who is this mystery man?
"I do not come to fight!  I come in peace!
I do not know where you really come from!
What I do know is that you're from the east!
I want to join your journey to the setting of the sun!"
She though for a second and nodded her head
And started to pack things up, getting ready to leave
He joined up with her and not a word was said
As they begin the journey to the other edge of the world and sea.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

IT WAS FINE UNTIL......

IT WAS FINE UNTIL.........

It was fine until you saw my face
You didn't want to know me anymore
Thanks for making me feel like such a waste
And wondering what I'm living for
I guess this sadness will never end
And all I'll ever see is rejection
All I'll ever hear is "let's just be friends"
While leaving my heart unprotected
I should just quit while I'm ahead
Trying to make something happen that never will
The harsh reality of knowing I'll never share my bed
Knowing my dream will never be fulfilled
I guess I must get used being lonely
Get used to never having a helping hand
Get used to having my shadow as company only
As I roam through this barren wasteland.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE?

SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE

There's someone for everyone, that's what they say
But when women see me, they turn the other way
Rejection after rejection, turning my heart cold
Knowing I'll be alone, even when I grow old
Looking for someone who can heal these wounds
But I won't hold my breath, that won't happen soon
It's just another saying that sounds good on paper
But in real life the truth of those words begin to waver
If there was someone for everyone there would be no sadness
People depressed and desperate, alone in their madness
There would be no one who gave up on hope
Or those who have reached the end of their rope
Looking for love, but finding nothing in return
Watching their lives wither away in a slow burn
Watching the light fade as they begun to cry
Tortured souls until the day they die
There's someone for everyone, that's not what I see
I know in this life that there's no one for me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE MYSTERIOUS WARRIOR FROM THE EAST (ONSLAUGHT OF SWORDS)

THE MYSTERIOUS WARRIOR FROM THE EAST (ONSLAUGHT OF SWORDS)

She bends down to take a drink from the stream
Glances around as she checks her surroundings
The afternoon sunlight reflects from the water in a gleam
She hears a rustle from the bushes and weird soundings
Out come ten men, armed to the teeth
Bandits with swords and arrows, ready to fight
These are the lot of people you wouldn't want to meet
In the middle of the day or during the night
Wicked grins on their faces, the only mean to do harm
She draws her sword without saying a word
"Give up now before we cut off your arms!
Fighting against us would just be absurd!
Just give up your weapons and we will spare you your life
Why fight us which would mean certain death?
Say something now or feel the edge of my knife!
Speak, I said or you'll be breathing your last breath!“
Without a sound, her sword becomes a steel blur
Taking on one and all as they attack at once
She's faster then their strikes which don't touch her
Reducing the big talker into a body with stumps
"Let's get out of here!" one screams but it's too late
Down they all go, they should have left her alone
It was their fault that they have met a cruel fate
They didn't know that with the sword she was honed
Still not tired, she begins to wash her sword
Washing the blood off at the side of the stream
No change of emotion on her face, not saying a word
And puts away her sword once it's clean
She gets back on her horse, continuing to travel west
One clear thought reigns supreme in her mind
One vow unspoken that was never said out loud
"I failed once but I will not fail this time!"
She frowns with rage but still doesn't make a sound
She just continues on and on
Only she knows what's on her mind
It will be that way until her quest is gone
As she makes her way around the wind
©2013 Darryl Mouzone