Tales From My Imagination: September 2014

Sunday, September 28, 2014

JUST ONE

That's all I want
All I need
Just one woman who sees the real me
Who can see the the light within my darkness
Who can see the sun within the storm
Who can see the warmth in the ice
That surrounds my broken soul
I don't want to sow my oats
Or hop from bed to bed
I don't care for that
I don't want it
I only want one woman
Someone who can love me for who I am
Someone who will give me a chance
I may not have looks but I have a kind heart
I'm embraced in darkness but there is light in me
I don't want to play the field, I just want one woman to accept me
One woman to share my world with
Just one.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN AND THE FALLEN KNIGHT (REDEMPTION)

Through the darkness, he screams her name
As the light thought left and the darkness came
He seemed to be floating on in endless time
He didn't know if this was real or if it was just in his mind
Shadows came and left and he heard voices
Not knowing if he made the right choices
Is he alive, is he dead? He wasn't so sure
Wherever he was, he must stand and endure
And then through the darkness, he opened his eyes
And what he saw next was a pleasant surprise
He opened his hand and there was the sunflower crest
And someone took it from him and placed it on his chest
Did this really mean what he think it did?
Did he redeem himself? He had to regain his wits
He sat up and saw the beauty of the Sunflower Queen
Her bright smile was like a wonderful dream
"Those men....what happened of them now?"
The Fallen Knight got up and gave a graceful bow
With tears in his eyes he sobbed deeply
And the Queen said: "It's okay, stop your weeping.
Because of you, Crenwell has been saved
You have true honor, and you really are brave
You have redeemed yourself, you are again a Knight
And I thank you and welcome you back to the light."
Another Knight walked up and gave him his yellow cloak
He dried his eyes because once again, he was filled with hope
He stood up, now feeling himself once again
This feeling he had, he never wants it to end
He looks at his Queen, loyal to her until death
He will fight and protect her until his very last breath
And now he has redeemed his name and is back to the only way he has known
He's where he belongs, right back at home
And now he stands, back by his brother's side
Full of fire and Crenwell pride
As he sees the beautiful Sunflower Queen take her rightful crown
She's the glory of all Queens and outshines them all around.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN AND THE FALLEN KNIGHT (THE CHASE)

The cold night was colder than it should have been
He feels the pain of the cuts and the frozen wind
No matter what, he must continue to ride
Because the three men were just right behind
He could hear them screaming, calling for his death
But he must protect her with his last breath
If only the knights will let him through the gates
He doesn’t know if he’ll get greeted with hate
He’s an oathbreaker, never allowed to go back
But Crenwell will fall into evil hands
Who will do nothing but break the people and the land
He can hear the hooves of the men behind him
He’s fading in and out, his vision is getting dim
He can’t lose conscious, he must stay aware
He must hold on, he’s almost there
He thinks of his Queen and that gives him strength
They’re close to catching him, away only an arm’s length
He rides on his horse faster, he cannot fail
He’s risking his life and a lifetime in jail
Now he sees the gates, they’re finally in view
He gets more strength and he feels anew
He see his former brothers, ready to defend
He must explain what’s going on before he meets his end
He reaches the gates and falls off his horse
The other men stop and start taking out their swords
So this is how it ends, in the pitch black night
At least he’s at the gates of Crenwell, he’s lived a full life
“These men, you must stop!”, he screamed with the breath in his lungs
“They plan to usurp the Queen and enslave everyone!”
The knights came out with their swords in their hands
The Fallen Knight’s last vision was looking at feet in the sand
That was the last he remembered as he fell into dreams
Is he dying, he thinks as he sees visions of the Queen
Her sunflower crown shines as she’s enveloped by light
He’s slowly fading away, as he tries to fight....
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN AND THE FALLEN KNIGHT (THE ESCAPE)

They're plotting their evil plan
To usurp the queen and have Crenwell in their hands
The Fallen Knight was tied up and bound
But he must find some way out
He must save the Sunflower Queen from losing her throne
Their plan can be stopped, if there was a way to make it known
He must wait until nightfall comes
And he pretended to be asleep until the setting of the sun
The three men let him be, now was the time
To escape and leave them far behind
He worked his way to get one arm free
But he had to be quiet and not rouse them from sleep
Slowly, but slowly, he freed himself from the rope
And now, finally, there was a glimmer of hope.
Now, he had to find his trusty sword
And get back to Crenwell to send them the word
He silently went across the sleeping men to get his blade
He grabbed it, snuck past them, he almost had it made
When he stepped on a twig and it made a loud snap
One of them woke up, ready to attack
The Knight drew his sword, the sound of steel filled the air
The battle for his life would begin right there
The all came for him, it was three on one
If he was overpowered, his plan would be done
He thought of the Sunflower queen and fought for his life
He thought of the oath and made his way to the light.
Cut up and bloody, he ran out of the place
And the three men were right behind him, hot on the chase
He grabbed one of their horses and rode like the wind
He had to get to the gates so their evil plan could end
He rides off into the wilds, so pitch dark
As he tries to calm his racing heart
Into the chill of night, he continues to bleed
But he must stay alive long enough for them not to succeed.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN AND THE FALLEN KNIGHT (THE WILDS)

The Fallen Knight kept riding under the blazing suns
As he still looked back at where he came from
The memory of him being banished fresh in his mind
Will he be known only as an oathbreaker for all time?
He wandered into the forest, the beginning of the wilds
A dangerous place that expanded for hundreds of miles
It was cooler here but the air was dense
His eyes darted around, he felt so tense
He saw weird eyes glaring through the trees
He heard weird sounds but nothing he could see
There was no way he would make it through here by nightfall
Far away, he heard a raven caw
He opened his hands, which still held the sunflower crest
The same one he used to wear proudly on his chest
But he’s an oathbreaker, he deserved this fate
He had the perfect life and let it go to waste
And even in the wilds, he still thought of the Queen
Her stunning beauty made her seem like a dream
But he saw the blazing anger in her eyes
When he broke his oath, he wanted to die
He looked to his left where he saw shadows move
He thought of the Queen so his nerves he could soothe
Then something shot out and knocked him off his horse
He landed on the ground, and hit with such force
He saw a dark hood and everything turned black
When he woke up again, he was lying on his back
He looked around and by trees he was surrounded
He saw a small fire and three men were around it
“Well look what we have here, a Crenwell Knight!
We should take what he has and then take his life!”
The knight spoke up as he tried to lift his head
“I’m an oath breaker, I’m better off dead!
So go ahead and kill me, my life isn’t worthwhile
I disgraced my Queen, I’ll never be able to smile
So just go ahead and run me through
As long as I don’t have to hear anymore from you!”
But then a cruel smile came on one man’s face
He had a plan to take the Queen’s place
To throw her in prison and take her crown
And eventually make all in Crenwell bow down
“We won’t kill you, you worth more alive
With you, we’ll be able to sneak in Crenwell and hide
And then our full plan will be able to take effect
We’ll take the throne first and then we’ll give you your death!”
This was a plan the Knight had to stop
But he was tied down, his heart began to drop
He had to find a way to save the Queen’s throne
Even if he was banished, it was still his home
He must die fighting, even if he broke the oath
He must protect the Queen, even if there’s no hope
He lied there, tied up to think of a way
To save the Sunflower Queen so her rulership will stay.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN AND THE FALLEN KNIGHT

Tears kept falling from his face
He deserved to be disgraced
He swore an oath to protect the land
And the lives of many were in his hand
He swore an oath to protect the Queen
He weakened and fell from his only dream
To protect all and keep the kingdom from harm
As he let in the raiders from Fa’harn
They went through the kingdom, harming all
And he himself ignored the Queen’s call
And now he stands, here in the throne room
He knew he would become a fallen knight very soon
It broke his soul to see the look in her eyes
He let her down, and for that he wanted to die
He wish he could go back and change what he done
But he broke his oath and deserved sympathy from no one
He knew the words she was going to say next
He waited for the pain to come with every labored breath
“You are now disgraced and have become a Fallen Knight
You have broken the kingdom’s oath and fallen from the light
Now in darkness for life you will be
You are banished from this kingdom, no more of it you will see.”
He left the throne room and saw the looks of others
He sobbed uncontrollably as he said goodbye to his brother
He was still a Knight, he stayed true to his word
It was he who messed up, this punishment he deserved
He passed through the gates with some food and his horse
His meager belongings and his trusty sword
The one he used to use when he defended her honor
And now he has no honor and certain to be a goner
He looks back at the wonderful kingdom he loved
But he deserves this banishment, yes he does
He rides off, heading off into the dangerous wilds
A place that’s dangerous to every man, woman and child
He is an oath breaker, a Fallen Knight who deserves no respect
So now what happens to him, he deserves whatever he gets
His soul is broken, never again to be healed
He regrets his mistake, he wished it wasn’t real
But it was real and now he must pay for what he’s done
To be banished from the kingdom forever and live life under the burning suns.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE PAIN, THE DARKNESS

It's what I deserve
As the darkness consumes me
As I scream for a rescue that will never come
But it's my fault, I brought myself here
And this is my eternal punishment
But I brought it all upon myself
And I have no one to blame but me
It hurts so much, the painful truth
But I deserve this, the darkness is my home
There is no way out
The king of a lonely world where I can't be touched
Because everything I touch turns to ruin
It's poisoned by the darkness I hold
So I can't be loved
Although I want to be
This curse I live with will never go away
And I wish I could touch the sun
Feel its warmth
But I never will
I'm sorry for what I have become
But I never wanted this to happen
It's too late for me, the darkness is here forever
And so is the pain that comes along with it
But I'm used to it now, because it's what I deserve
As I silently mourn the death of the light inside
The darkness has consumed me
The darkness has consumed me.
2014 Darryl Mouzone

MOONDREAM

There she waits in the moonlight
More beautiful than I have ever seen
These feelings I tried to fight
Because I didn’t know she wanted me
Now there’s no more fighting
I give in to the passion
Our souls connected like lightning
Something I would only imagine
But now it’s true and not a daydream
Here she is, she wants me too
As weird and as crazy as it seems
The women who want me are very few
But she does and it's more than sex
It's something that's deeper than that
Staring in her eyes gives me quickening breaths
As she comes close and takes off my hat
We are connected in mind and soul
She sees who I am and she doesn't laugh
She's giving me confidence and making me whole
I embrace her, enjoying the feeling of her skin
She smells sweeter than a blooming rose
The walls crumble and the healing begins
As everything around us begins to slow
Nothing else matters, it's just us two here
Bonded on all levels, the way I always wanted
There's no longer a need for me to fear
Of being alone forever and my soul being haunted
She's here with me now, the storm inside is calm
The clouds have cleared, I can see the sun
Under the moonlight, we achieve a special bond
We were once two but then we became one
She has my heart, I will never go astray
No other woman will ever compare to my beautiful queen
I will be with her until the very last day
Because she has become my moondream.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

RAPHEL THE HERO (THE FALL OF RADIUS MORGAN)

His palms are sweaty and the tension is thick
Worried about what happens, he's making himself sick
The voice recorder is ready and the plans are set
This will be the biggest thing he has done yet
He's taking down a kingpin who has ruled for years
Shaking down the neighborhood and leaving people in fear
But he's going to take a stand and take Radius down
As he nervously paces and looks all around
The trap is set, but will Radius come?
Will he come armed with all his goons and guns?
Too late for thinking because a car rolls up
Radius walks out and with Brockett and Bub
His two biggest men who aren't afraid to kill
Raphel had second thoughts and began to feel ill
But it was too late, he can’t back out now
Everything will be alright, someway, somehow
Radius walks up, his eyes full of fire
“Hey Raphel, you better not be wearing a wire!
Do you have the money for our deal?
Don’t play around with me, this better be real!”
Raphel, sweating, with an elevated heart rate
Hands him money, trying not to make his hands shake
“What’s wrong with you Raphel, I warned you not to mess with me
You better be serious or the next day you’ll never see!”
Raphel hands Brockett the money and he counts it
Deep inside, Raphel’s so nervous it’s making him sick
And that’s when the worst thing that can happen did
Radius turned around and discovered the recorder that was hid
With death in his eyes, he takes out his gun
And all of Raphel’s instincts were telling him to run
Brockett and Bub retrieve guns of their own
And the whole undercover operation was done and blown
Gunshots ring out as bullets whizz by his face
But as crazy as it was, things did go according to plan
As cops from everywhere come out, they were outgunned and outmanned
Radius had no other choice but to put his weapon down
Brockett and Bub put their weapons down on the ground
And just like that, the cops swooped in and they were arrested
But the arrests weren’t quiet and didn’t go uncontested
“Raphel, you will pay for this when I get out of jail
You know that I will be able to make the bail
Just remember this, that we will meet again
And be ready for what will come for you my friend!”
The cops led Radius and his crooks away
The neighborhood crowded around Raphel that day
That day, he became the local hero who saved
Even though he was nervous, he stood up and was brave
But he knew that the battle with Radius had only begun
Even though this day the neighborhood was won.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

NO MATTER WHAT (DESTROYING A TROLL)

Call me a nigger
Call me an ape
I won't pull the trigger
And give in to your hate
Call me ugly
Call me fat
Say no one will love me
And alone is where I'll always be at
Say I'm worthless
Call me names
Try to blast me off the surface
I won't point fingers and blame
I will prove you wrong
I'll defy the odds
You were wrong all along
And I will destroy your facades
Go ahead and hide behind fake avatars
And behind a keyboard
I know how ugly you really are
I won't be in your online war
I won't hide, I'll show who I really am
While you hide in a basement during late hours
I'll continue to do the best I can
I won't let you take my power
The Gods are on my side
Even though you don't think so
Because I refuse to hide
And I'll bravely take your blows
But they can't hurt me
I won't allow them to
I'm more than you can see
I have a heart that's true
So no matter what, I'll never fold
I'll keep moving on
While your insults grow old
And you'll be forgotten and gone
No matter what, I will succeed
Even without looks, I'll achieve my goal
I will find what I want, what I need
No matter what negative things I'm told
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

MY STEEL QUEEN

In the moonlight, her sword's hilt is aglow
As I look outside to the falling snow
Inside here, a fire burns bright
My pulse quickens throughout this night
She's a warrior, who always stands strong
Many bards have sung her victory song
But now the war is over and it's just us
She has given me all her trust
And I have given her mine, all is laid bare
As pulses quicken and passion rises in the air
Come to me, my steel queen
Come to me, and fulfill my dreams
Take away the pain and make this love feel true
There's only one woman I want in this world and it's you.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THEY'RE NOT ON YOUR SIDE

You really think they're on your side?
Did you really fall for their tall tales?
They're greedy and want us all to die
And pollute Mother Earth as she tearfully wails
And you think you have a voice
Your voice to them is worthless
You think you've made a choice
They think you're insects on this surface
When will you learn not to fight for them at all?
To stop being gullible like the rest?
Only when they need funds, they'll call
They don't think your interest is the best
That's why nothing changes
Except the death rate
It's been this way for ages
But you still choose to follow their hate
You're being used by them, can't you see? Or are you that blind or extremely ignorant?
Those greedy bastards don't care about you or me
They only care about their existence
It doesn't matter to then how many lives are lost
How many families will mourn
It's their own agenda, no matter what the cost
Until this planet is barren and worn
They're putting people against people
To divide the numbers so we will be weak
And succumb to their endless evil
As they monitor every word we speak
But people don't see humanity's extinction ahead
That is their ultimate goal
They don't want peace, they want to see everyone dead
As long as they get to stay rich and watch their children grow old.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

GETTING BACK UP

He's been beaten down again and again
But he keeps getting up
He won't stop until he gets what he's looking for
He sheds tears and the pain of the beating
But he won't stop until he reaches his goal
Bloody and scarred, he still gets up
Stands, and begs for more
He won't give up until he finds love
No matter how many rejections
No matter how many times he gets beaten down
Now matter how low he gets
He'll get back up
And try once more.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE QUEEN'S SHADOW

She has a Kingdom that's all her own
But a shadow follows her and won't leave her alone
She can't escape it no matter where she goes
The shadow is cruel, l relentless and cold
She sits on her throne in constant worry
Tears coming from her eyes which makes her vision blurry
She only wishes the shadow would leave
So she can happily rule and finally be free
But the shadow stands by her with no compassion
As she goes through pain impossible to imagine
The shadow has weighed down heavy on her heart
Breaking her down and tearing her apart
But she must keep it together for all of her people
She must care for all, even those who are evil
But who will care for her when she feels down?
Everyone's in fears the intimidation of the crown
When she falls, who will be there for her?
Who will be there when the shadow's wrath occurs
She silently struggles in her endless pain
As she stays strong she suffers from something hard to explain
All she ever wanted was to be at peace
But the wrath of her shadow never seems to cease
In her throne room she sits, crying endless tears
Trying not to think about her biggest fears
As her shadow lurks over her, laughing at her sorrow
But she must remain strong for her subjects on the morrow
She begs for whatever is in the sky for a peace of mind
As she hopes for freedom and happiness in her lifetime.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IT WILL HAPPEN SOMEDAY?

That's what they tell me, it will happen someday
But nothing but disappointment ones my way
I'm not meant to find love in this place
No one wants me and this hideous face
There will be no one to share my life with
There isn't a woman who wants, she doesn't exist
I'll always come home to an empty house with no love
And my sadness will eat me alive like it always does
I'm not fooled by those silky inspiring words
There's no woman for me on the face of this earth
Some people are to ugly to be loved by anyone
That's me, I'll always see the darkness, never the sun
That someday will never come, this I know
There will be no spring for me, I'm in winter's eternal snow.
®2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE ONLY ONE

Am I the only one who wants to people get along?
For everyone to be living in unity?
To have the entire world singing the same song?
And all will be viewed by more of what their ethnicity may be?
Everyone else wants hate and war
To see the shameless destruction of others
Most want to see death and nothing more
And to see the last flame of humanity choked and smothered
I only want peace and to learn more about other people
To travel and share my experiences around the globe
Most view entire countries as pure evil
And want to drop bombs on them and kill them all, young and old
I may the the only one left in this world who even cares
Everyone's shallow, thinking money will be their fortress
I speak my mind while most people don't even dare
While the tension of hate seems to cause only more distress
I refuse to follow the trail of hate but I may be the only one
The only one who wants true peace in this cold wasteland
I just want to see humanity sing together and dance under the sun
While most want to see war, separation and death by bloody political hands.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

UNEXPLAINED

Darkness, pain turmoil
All I'll ever see on earth's soil
Sadness, loneliness, crushed soul
I'm alone forever and will never be whole
Rejection, disappointment, no chances
Of me ever having beautiful romances
Tears, despair, pain
Feelings that hurt but can't be explained
Why even bother with it at all?
Beaten down so much, I can barely crawl
I'll never find love, I'll be forever alone
For the rest of my life, I'll be on my own
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

TELL ME EVERYTHING

Tell me what you love and hate
I want to see the passion on your face
What makes you tick and how do you feel?
Tell me these things so I know you're real
Tell me your innermost thoughts, don't leave me in the dark
I want to know what really touches your heart
I will also tell you everything on my mind
Together we will grow and last the test of time
I want to know the deepest parts of your soul
What makes you smile, what makes you whole
Tell me what saddens you on this crazy earth
What gives you fire and gives you self worth
Tell me everything and please never stop
I want to know all about you, that's what I want.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

SHE WAS MY WORLD

She was my world, until she brought it down on me
She said those words I didn't want to hear
I had a feeling we would never be
That was my biggest fear
But my fears came true to life
As she said those words
Rejected again, it cuts like a knife
I wish I never heard
I'm just a good guy, not good enough to date
At least that's what it seems
Forever alone is my final fate
Finding someone is only a dream.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

GO AHEAD AND HATE ME

Hate me for my looks
Hate me for being a broken man
Hate me for my love of books
Hate me any way you can

Hate me for the darkness inside
Hate me for what you don't know
Hate me because of my size
Hate me everywhere, no matter where I go

Hate me for giving up on humanity
Hate me for seeing civilization's end
Hate me for resisting the powers that be
Hate me for refusing to follow any trends

Hate me for being real
Hate me for speaking my mind
Hate me for saying what I feel
Hate me until the end of time

Hate me for not trying to pretend
Hate me for not putting on a fake smile
Hate me until this worthless world ends
Hate me because I think humanity's vile.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

GIVING UP THE SWORD FOR HER

I was born a warrior, fighting in many lands
But I'm ready to give it up for a lovely maiden's hand
She has eyes that can melt the coldest heart
And a face so beautiful, it rips your wall apart
I was a man of war, fighting with my sword
But I'm willing to give it up all just for her

I'm giving up the sword for you, my love
I'll leave these steel wars far behind
And this is my promise to the Gods above
I will love you until the end of time

She spoke to me and said my name
Her voice was as sweet as sugar cane
She would make a wallflower dance in his chair
Around her, an aura of magic always filled the air
I knew right then what I had to do
And I gave up the sword, and it was all for you

I'm giving up the sword for you my love
I'll leave these steel wars far behind
And this is my promise to the Gods above
I will love you until the end of time

Now off we go together and ride the sky
We will be together forever, you and I
I gave up the sword and I'd do it again
For I have finally found happiness that has no end
No more cold nights and being all alone
My lonely steel heart has finally found a home

I'm giving up the sword for you my love
I'll leave these steel wars far behind
And this is my promise to the Gods above
I will love you until the end of time
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

YOUR GOD

Your God says to love one another
But to kill others who are supposed to be your sisters and brothers
Your God says to rejoice hand in hand
But to hate others that come from another land
Your God claims you have a right to live
But robs the poor and tells them to give
Your God claims to love all people
But interracial relationships are still considered evil
If that's your God, I don't want to know him
Tell me I'm going to hell and my future is dim
We're already in hell as your God silently laughs
As humanity's demise slowly comes to pass
I thought he was his greatest creation, where is he?
While empires fall and were enslaved by the powers that be?
Where is your God that said he'd bring an end to this?
Does he even care about us? Does he even exist?
At this point, your God is useless to me
The endless violence and war he does nor see
Don't tell me about your God, he's nothing but cruel
As this world is dying under human rule
Your God isn't love, he's full of hate
As he does nothing to stop humanity's deadly fate
He chooses to save one as another dies
When others are abused, he doesn't hear their cries
But he answers prayers to the affluent only
While the rest of us are on our own, broken and lonely
Your God isn't really a God at all
Your God is a monster who wants to see our downfall.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

EMBRACE

To feel you in my arms
To have your arms wrapped around me
To feel your warmth
To feel your heartbeat
To hear your voice
It was all I needed
All I craved
All I wanted
To keep going on this world
You gave me that embrace
And for that, I'm grateful.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

Friday, September 26, 2014

TOO NICE TO BE LOVED

I don't know what to do anymore
Wondering why I continue to search for
Women want assholes but I'm not that way
I'm too nice so alone I'll always stay
Assholes are more fun, that's what she said
Nice guys get nothing, be an asshole instead
This is the screwed up society we live in
When being nice and respectful is considered a sin
But mistreating women will get you praise and approval
But that is something that I will never do
I thought I didn't belong here but now I know for sure
I'll be alone for life, I know but I guess I have to endure
Being the nice guy will always leave you rejected
While women choose assholes and you're left feeling dejected
I wished I loved in another place in time
When it wasn't considered boring to be nice and kind
I can't be the mean, that's not in my nature
So I can't go out and about with asshole behavior
I think the universe played a joke on me as the stars laugh above
I was made this way and because of it, I'm too nice to be loved.
®2014 Darryl Mouzone

GOOD, BUT NOT GOOD ENOUGH

You're a good man, that's what people say
But that's not enough in this world today
No one wants a good man, they only want jerks
The leeches of the world who betray and hurt
It feels that being this way is just a waste
When the good people of the world are always in last place
They're the ones always left alone
With big hearts that will never find a home
All I ever wanted was to find someone who felt the same
Someone who would make me smile when she said my name
But that is just nothing but a dream for me
I'm not good enough so alone I'll always be
I don't want to dominate or always on the hunt for sex
I think a deep connection with someone is truly the best
I don't care about looks, I only care about the soul
If that woman is truly genuine and whole
But this world is obsessed with looks
And one's social status is what's big in the books
I'm not good enough, I only have a big heart
So I'm constantly rejected, having my soul ripped apart
I’m good, but not good enough for this world, I see
I’m good, but not good enough for a woman to want me.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE STUBBORN FOOL

He tries again and again
And comes to the same end
Alone and in a world of hurt
Feeling lost and lower than dirt
He should just give up and accept
He'll be alone until his last breath
He has a desire to be with someone
But ends up empty with no one
He gets up after getting beaten down
Just to get beaten back in the ground
He's too stubborn to call it quits
He's such a fool, the outcome is the same
He wishes this foolish desire would wane
But it doesn't even though he'll never find
Love in this world, he's been left behind
But yet he tries to no avail
He tries again and again and does nothing but fail
He'll keep trying because he's nothing but a fool
A fool who wants love but will never be that cool.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

HER SMILE

Her smile can change my mood
Turn a bad day good
Chase away the clouds and rain
Put an end to all my pain
No words have to be said
She already knows what's in my head
All I need to see is her smile
And all the bad in this world disappears for awhile.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IT'S BETTER THIS WAY

I'm not giving up
I'm saving myself
From a world of pain
From more rejection
From more letdowns
From more "Let's just be friends"
It's better that I focus on other things
Instead of chasing an impossible dream
Which I know will never come true
A dream that kills me inside
Of wanting someone to love me
Something that will never happen in my life
So it's better that I turn away now
Before I face more hurt
I'm already broken enough
With wounds that will never heal
I don't need to be broken more
By empty words that disappear
Once someone sees me face to face
And they see the horror that is me
And their feelings change
No, that won't happen again
Not this time
So I'm saying goodbye to hope
It's better this way
Trust me, I know
It's better this way.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

MONSTER

Here they come
I try to hide, to find a place to escape
There's no place to hide, I'm trapped
I hear the footsteps coming closer and closer
I know what's going to happen next
I can't stop it.
I see them now, I know what they're going to say
Before the screams start, I know
I brace myself for the pain ahead

"YOU MONSTER, YOU MONSTER!", they scream at me
Beating me down until I can no longer breathe
Abusing me like I didn't have a right to live
Oh, I wish I could have found a place to hide.....

"YOU'RE FAT!"
"YOU'RE UGLY!"
"YOU'RE WORTHLESS!"
"NO WOMAN WILL EVER WANT YOU!"
"JUST DIE!"

Those words, why do they hurt me with them?
What have I done?
I don't deserve this pain
They wont' leave me alone, no matter what I do
I wish I had wings and could fly away from here
This cold world has beaten me down once again
I don't know if I'll be able to get up this time
The wounds are now taking longer to heal
It's getting harder to care about it anymore

But I look up and there's no one around
No one is chasing me and beating me down
It was all in my head, now I can plainly see
The one calling me a monster and beating me down
Was just only me.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I WISH THAT WAS ME

I wish that was me being kissed
That I would leave for work and I would be missed
I wish I had someone to think of whole I worked
Someone to make me smile and erase all the hurt
To come home to after a long day was done
To see the first thing in the morning of the rising sun
But there is no one, all I have are dreams
I'm alone for life, at least that's what it seems
Nobody wants me in this world so cold
I'll never have someone to embrace and hold
I'm destined to be alone, although I don't want it to be
But it looks like this loneliness is all that I will ever see
I walk on alone in this journey called life
Never to be warmed by another soul, feeling cold as ice
For all the couples in love and feeling happy
I look at them and wished that was me
But my heart will never be loved I'm all alone
I just have to face this world all on my own
It would be nice to have someone standing by my side
Giving me strength every time I looked into her eyes
But there's no one there and there will never be
Someone in this world that would ever love me.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THANK YOU SUMMER

Thank you for being the way you are
Your bright soul can outshine a star
Thank you for being so gentle and kind
To be so talented and to have a brilliant mind
You are stronger than most people on this earth
You do have a purpose, there was a reason for your birth
You have helped more souls than you even know
Don't belive the negative things, just let them all go
Touch the sun and absorb the light like a beautiful sunflower
Rise above it all and don't let people take your power
You are amazing, don't ever think you're not
When you smile, the entire world takes notice and stops
You're not invisible, at least not to me
You are a wonderful, passionate, caring human being
And I thank you Summer for letting me in
I thank you for not letting the darkness within me win
Thank you for telling me the truth and what I needed to hear
You have made my outlook on life finally seem clear
You're worth so much more than what you think
You saved someone from going over the brink
And for that, I thank you for always being yourself
You have something special that makes you different to everyone else
That's not a bad thing, that's something wonderful
Never let anyone take away from what is you.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I'M NOT A MAN

I'm not a man because my mind isn't sex obsessed
I'm not a man because I want a soul mate
I'm not a man because I don't hop from one woman to the next
I'm not a man because I don't want sex on the first date
I'm not a man because I think with my mind
I'm not a man because I show women respect
I'm not a man because I think women are more than breasts and a behind
If that makes me not a man, I guess I won't be a man until my last breath.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I WON'T BE ENSLAVED BY SOCIETY

Don't tell me what to think
Don't tell me what to do
Don't push me to the brink
Because I'm not you

Don't tell me that I need to change
To think more like the rest
The "normal" way of thinking is deranged
Even though most think it's the best

Don't tell me to choose
A choice that's not mine
Don't tell me that I'll lose
Because I have my own mind

Don't tell me how I'm wrong
For not thinking like others
It won't be long
Before my spirit is smothered

So what I'll be alone
Because I refuse to be enslaved
Thinking on your own
Is something for the brave

I'll break free from it all
And stand on the outside
As I watch humanity fall
And destroy itself with my own eyes

I won't be a yes man
And just agree to please
I'll continue to take my stand
And refuse to bend my knee
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IS THIS IT?

Is this it? Could she be the one?
Will she bring me though the darkness and see the sun?
Will she see past my looks and see me for who I am?
Will she be able to accept a broken man?
I proceed with caution, I won't get hurt this time
I won't be fooled as someone plays with my mind
To protect myself from falling and getting rejected
I must not be so open and keep my heart protected
I've been down this road many times before
But they've only wanted to be friends and nothing more
I must be cautious and keep my wits
But I still wonder in the back of my head, is this it?
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

RIDE THE STORM

At your worst, I won't push you away
I want to be there until everything's okay
When the storm clouds come and the rain begins
I swear our friendship won't come to an end
When the wind picks up and the lightning stikes
I'll be right there, helping you through the night
Until you're able to smile and laugh again I'll ride the storm with you until it comes to an end.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I ACHE

I ache for your touch, your soothing voice
The warmth of you as you embrace me
The scent of you, so unique and wonderful
The way you can keep me calm when I'm in turmoil
Your kiss, that sets my entire soul on fire
And leaves me quaking, melting the worries away
These nights away have me longing for your love
Hearing your laugh that brings me joy
As I travel through the plains, I think of your face
It keeps me strong and loyal to you
My heart is yours, another woman can't tempt me away
They have nothing to offer compared to you
I wait for the many days until I can see you again
The sun will shine as I take all of you in
I will hold you lovingly and never want to let go
But until then, I will ache for you and still love you so.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

ONE WISH

If I had only one wish I'd want to come true
That one wish would be to be with you
I know that with you, everything else will follow
The sadness would be gone and be forever swallowed
I could finally smile and it wouldn't be forced
The only reason why would be you, of course
I would finally be able to see the sun instead of the rain
I would no longer have this dull, lonely pain
I don't want to sleep with you, that's not my motive at all
I want to wake up with you, and have it all I want to see you smile, to be able to touch your face
To look into your eyes and see a heavenly place
To deeply connect with you on levels unknown
To have something worthwhile, knowing I'm no longer alone
And once I had that wish and it did come true
I would spend my days showing how grateful I am for you.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

YOU DON'T DESERVE IT

You don't deserve to be treated so bad
You don't deserve to feel so sad
You don't deserve the bad things that happened to you
You are a genuine person whose heart is true
I wish I could heal all of your hurts
But just know you are a special person on this earth
You deserve to be held in high regard
You deserve a life that isn't so hard
You deserve to be treated with the utmost respect
You deserve all the light until there's no darkness left
I may be one person, but for what it's worth
Have a beautiful soil and being mistreated isn't what you deserve.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

DARKNESS IS WINNING

Trying to stay positive and stay in the light
But today, I know I'm losing this fight
The darkness envelopes me and my entire soul
As it sucks the joy out of me and swallows me whole
So long hope and dreams, they have all been crushed
I am an ugly beast, my heart will never be touched
I'm not a man, I'm just a pathetic excuse for one
The rain will always fall, I'll never see the sun
I'm trying to fight back but the thoughts are too strong
I have fighting against it for way too long
I've been alone all my life, I'm meant to be alone
I'll always come home to nothing but an empty home
I keep fighting but these thoughts won't go away
It seems like the darkness is going to win today
Hopes and dreams are gone and shattered
I'll never get the one thing that really matters
Darkness, you have won today, I surrender and kneel
You have beaten me, this loneliness is all I'll ever feel
Like a tidal wave the darkness knocks me down
And with the sorrow it brings, I delightfully drown.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

EVEN WHEN I'M RIGHT, I'M WRONG

I try to do the best, I really do
But no matter what I'm always wrong
I guess this is something I must go through
It's my punishment, no matter how long
I try to fight for the light
But the dark calls
I try to fight for the right
But I keep hitting walls
I don't know what to make of it
I always lose in the end
But to hell with it all, I just quit
I'll never have a true friend.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

EVERY TIME I KISS HER

Feeling so nervous, hands shaking
Filled with anticipation, body quaking
Looking into her eyes, taking the next step
Seeing that her soul has so much depth
Slowly leaning forward as our lips press
So soft and heavenly, I lose my breath
Her soft hands touching my face
Calming me down, it seems like time stops
An eternity of bliss as our lips seemed locked
I want to have this feeling again and again
Everyone I kiss her, I never want it to end.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I WANT TO DO IT ALL WITH YOU

I want to smile with you
I want to be silly with you
I want to frown with you
I want to laugh with you
I want to cry with you
I want to pick you up when you fall
I want to be there for it all
I want to be there when you close your eyes
I want to wake up with you when the sun rises
I want to walk with you
I want to run with you
I want to grow with you
And live to be old with you
I want to share it all with you
My heart, mind and soul with you
My innermost feelings and thoughts with you
I want spontaneous moments with you
To look into your eyes and fall in love with you
To have my breath taken away with you
To journey through this crazy world with you
To ride the dark storms with you
To see the sun shine again with you
To fight for you
And do what's right for you
When the sea levels rise
And when the day comes of humanity's demise
I want to spend those last moments with you
So that the last thing I'll see is everything that made me happy for doing it all with you.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

I WILL NEVER BE

I will never be the one that women want
Because I'm too different from this place
My lonely feelings for me will forever haunt
I'm not attractive enough and have and ugly face
I'm not the guy who's always obsessed with sex
I want and strive for something so much more
So I always get dismissed and women yell: "Next!"
I can't be what this world wants me to be
I don't want to be that kind of guy
I only want someone to accept the real me
But women always seem to just pass me by
It hurts to be rejected again and again
To be brought back again to the dark shadows
I now know that darkness will always be my friend
Because this world is too materialistic and shallow
It's all about what you have and what you look like
Not about who you are and if you have a beautiful soul
That's why my only love will be the night
I won't be that good looking guy who always fits the mold
I won't be that guy who wants to be dominant
And tell women to be submissive and know their role
I don't care about egos and prominence
I want equality and growth until the days we grow old
I only want to be accepted for who I am
But I know that is something I'll never see
Because of how I think, I'll never be a real man
And accepted and loved is something I'll never be.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

SPELLBOUND

So amazed by your beauty
But not in a physical sense
I see so much more than that
I see your soul, so delicate and gentle
It leaves me wishing for something that will never be
Life can be weird that way
But still, you leave me spellbound.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IN THE DARKNESS, SHE WHISPERED TO ME

Lost in a turmoil of emotions
Not knowing where to turn
My head is full of negative commotion
My soul begins to burn
The darkness envelopes me, dragging me down
I give up, not wanting to fight anymore
I go to my knees, the darkness surrounds
I have no reason left to fight for
As the darkness begins to eat me alive
Through the darkness, I hear a voice
It came through clear in this endless night
It made me realize that I did have a choice
And in the darkness, I began to fight
I ran toward her whispers, which kept calling my name
I couldn't see her but I knew she was there
She kept me calm, kept me tame
She put a small whiff of hope in the air
There was a crack in the darkness and it was light
I ran towards it with all my strength
I ran as hard as I could, with all my might
It seemed like I ran across many great lengths
The closer I came to the light, her face I could see
I reached right out and grabbed her hand
She pulled me out and she didn't let go of me
She embraced the soul of a broken man.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

I WILL SAY SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL

The day has been long
The day has been rough
Everything went wrong
And it was tough
And now I'm home
Looking at you
My hope has grown
Because of what you do
You make me calm and tame
I'll say something beautiful
I look at you and say your name
That something beautiful is you.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

SOMETHING MORE

I wish for something more
A stronger connection
Something worth fighting for
To lead me in the right direction
I don't want sex
Or my ego stroked
I want my mind at rest
As you give me hope
I want to look into your eyes
And feel safe and secure
I want to wipe the tears you cry
And give you strength to endure
I don't care for looks
I care for something more
I want to search your nooks
And find the beauty you have in store.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

BE MY SHIELD MAIDEN

I'll fight for you if you fight for me
I'll be there for you if you're there for me
As we weather the storms in this world
Be my shield maiden and protect me
I promise you that I'll never hurt you
I'll hold you when you want to be held
I'll respect your boundaries, my love
I'll try my best to heal the wounds you have
And seek vengeance on those who gave them to you
Take my sword and fight with me
Against the darkness that tries to bring us down
Grow along with me as we learn more about each other
Grab my hand, I promise to never let go
I will pour out my heart to you and won't hold back
Make my dreams come true and become my shield maiden.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

MEANT TO BE ALONE

There's no one for me
That's the plain truth
I'm too ugly
Too fat
I have too many issues
That no one can handle
No one will understand
Or take time to understand
Finding someone isn't meant to be
I was stupid for thinking so
It's time to give up those dreams
I was meant to be alone
I'm no good to anyone
I'm no good to anybody
It's better this way
To be alone, it's what I deserve
I was meant to be alone.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

YOUR SKIN, YOUR LIPS

Your skin, so silky and smooth to the touch
Holding and caressing you heals me so much
The warmth of you fills my soul
Interwining with yours, making me whole
Your soft whisper, telling me assuring words
The sweet sayings that I have never heard
I feel my skin against yours in the late night
Breaking away the sadness, I feel alright
You kiss me, your lips as soft as heaven itself
I'm here with you, I have no need for anything else
I can see it all now, as out souls begin to glow
Feeling something I haven't felt since long ago
You have awakened in me what I once thought was dead
And it all began with those words you said
You've given me hope once again
When I all thought my hope was at an end
You opened my heart when it wanted to close
And I can't believe it was me that you chose
I'm grateful to be able to caress your beautiful skin
To kiss your beautiful lips
All because you looked deeper and saw what was within
You have fulfilled my every want and wish.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

ENDING IT

Hopes and dreams is nothing but a fallacy
Something I have learned from life
I'm a realist and live in reality
This world is cold and cuts you like a knife
There is no more love to find on earth
So I'm giving up in truing to find it
I'll always be alone, it's my destiny since birth
So that's why on those silly dreams I will quit
I'll focus on something else for all it's worth
No more getting my hopes up and being passed by
No more rejections and my heart getting broke
No more lies of being told I'm a sweet guy
No more will I be love's big joke
Accepting the truth is the best thing I can do
Now I can finally close a chapter and move on
There will be stones where roses once grew
But at least the pain will end and be gone.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IT WAS ALWAYS HER

Through the sadness and pain
Through the darkness and rain
Through the sad, lonely nights
And through most of his pitiful life
It was always her

She was all that mattered
His world was shattered
But just the sound of her laugh
Made the darkness a thing of the past

Through the turmoil in his mind
Through the many glasses of wine
Through the troubles in his soul
It was the thought of her that kept him whole

It was only her he cared about
It was only her who erased his doubt
It was only her that mattered on this cruel earth
It was only her that going through hell was worth

It was her that was his light
It was her that made him fight
It was her that made him live
For her, his heart he would give.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THANK YOU

I don't know what I did to deserve a friend like you

But I'm grateful and thank you for all that you do

Thank you for being genuine, compassionate and kind

Thank you for being there for me all the time

Thank you having such a beautiful soul

Thank you for the amazing talents that you hold

Thank you for allowing me into your life

Thank you for my gift, a book so nice

I appreciate you in all sorts of ways

I AM DARKNESS (WELCOME HOME)

I am where I belong, in the beautiful dark
Not with the rest, out in the sun
The sun is needed for those with a heart
And those who have someone
I have no one in my lonely lair
And no one will ever be with me
There's no amount of prayer
That will make these things not be
I tried to go out like normal people
Just to be made fun of and ridiculed
The truth is, people are mostly cruel and evil
To think someone would love me, I felt like a fool
The darkness welcomed be back, embraced me whole
There were no jokes made at my expense
Forever alone is the only life I'll know
Embracing the darkness, so thick and dense
I'm ask in the darkness, where I belong
People like me will never see love's light
I will never hear the voice of another woman's song
I will be alone by myself in this eternal night
Always rejected, beat down and misunderstood
Laughed at, broken, feeling hollow inside
If someone could see past my dark soul and see the good
But it's a world of beauty and ugly people are tossed aside
I wish I wasn't born and looked this way
Maybe for once, someone I could find
But I'm hideous and from mirrors I stay away
No one will ever love me in due time
That's just a fantasy, a wishful dream
Something that won't happen in real life
Life is cold, cruel, wicked and mean
No one wants an ugly fat guy, even if he's nice
At least I'm back home in the darkness, I feel at home
My eyes are dry and have rub out of tears
I have accepted now I'll be forever alone
That's how it will be and I have no fears.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IS IT ALL WORTH IT?

The rain keeps pounding down
There's no hope of it coming to an end
The darkness seems to stick around
I only wish this was just a trend
One misfortune after another
I have that kind of luck
The situation becomes tight and smothered
I'm down to my last buck
I always hear how wonderful life is
How great it can be
It hasn't been like that as I exist
It hasn't been great for me
Sometimes I wonder is it worth it to be alive
If all I ever see is misfortune and strife?
What's life worth if pain is all I see with these eyes
And that's all I'll see until the day I die?
What's it all for anyway, life is one harsh lesson
Don't tell me that life is a blessing
It's a curse and there's no exception
It's full of misery pain and stressing
Don't tell me to smile
I have nothing to smile for
As I walk many miles
To get to work while my mind is at war
As I think to myself, is it really worth it?
Why do I bother to continue breathing
There's nothing but sadness and worthless bullshit
I wouldn't mind eternally sleeping
At least then I would be at peace
And my pain will finally be gone for good
No more stress, the thoughts will cease
I'm tired of fighting, I'm looking for the reaper and his dark hood
I give up, just come and take me now
You have won, I'm defeated at last
Bring your Scythe down upon the back of my neck
Just make it clean and make it fast
So I can finally he relived when I take my last breath.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone