Tales From My Imagination: July 2013

Friday, July 26, 2013

THE NEW REDHEAD

I can't belive this the stars must be aligned
To be in a position like this for the second time?
I worked with a redheaded Goddess at my old job
And now I work with another one, I almost want to sob
Not tears of sadness but tears of pure bliss
I'm one lucky guy to be in another position like this
She's short but like all redheads has a soul of fire
To see her everyday would be my very desire
Of course, I'm such a vivid daydreamer
I daydreamed of us fighting Gorridon Screamers
Of course, well be working side by side
This is so awesome and I always wonder why
I'm in this place again, is it my destiny
Will a redhead be my beloved to be?
Is this the universe's way of showing me the light?
Will I truly end up with a beautiful redhead as my wife?
Who really knows, but life can be strange
Some things stay the same even though some things changed.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

NERVES

Heart rate elevated, nervous as hell
Stomach is feeling like an empty well
I must stay calm and overcome this fear
I must remain calm now that I am here
As people approach me looking for help
I can't be my usual introverted self
It's time for me to step out of my comfort zone
Smiling but I wish I was still sleeping at home
I have to tell myself that I can prevail
Even though I'm nervous and my skin feels pale
I really need something to calm my nerves
I'm trying to keep calm but I'm just so disturbed
Doing breathing exercises to try to relax
I'm already here so there's no turning back.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

MORE IS MORE

Call me weird, I don't want to see you scantily dressed
To me that's nothing that would leave me impressed
I would rather see a woman dressed in traditional pagan wear
Then seeing her with clothes that are barely there
A dream woman is one that carries a sword
She would have me hanging on to her every word
Seduce my mind and my wild imaginstion
And I'll do anything for you without hesitation.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

REVENGE ON HOOVES AND STEEL

You came and invaded my land
killed my wife and kids
And now with this sword in my hand
I'll make sure you won't live
You call me a savage for fighting back
To protect what's left of our people
You're the one that started this scrap
But you have the nerve to call me evil?
I coming through the forest for nothing but revenge
To give you the pain you gave to me
And I won't stop until all of your screams end
And your bloody remains is all I see
We were at peace with all of you
We offered you help to be able to survive
That's why I won't feel guilt for what I will do
By your hands I watched my own wife die
Now here I come, into your camp
While all of you are sound asleep
Cutting down as many as I can
Before the first one gets up and weeps
Screams and cries that I hear
Are music to my ears
Now you'll feel the same here
As my child as he was killed in fear
The fires are blazing high
The survivors come out, wanting my head
I hear the sorrows and the cries
But I'm glad and don't morn for those that are dead
On their horses now, they are screaming with rage
Now they know exactly how I felt
You started this war you wanted to wage
There's no room for compassion or anything else
If they catch me, I know I'm dead for sure
But in the end, none of that really matters
I want to die, I have nothing left anymore
They killed my family, my world is shattered.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

TAKE ME AWAY TO VALHALLA

As my life leaves my body, she sees me
On this bloody battlefield
It's getting harder and harder to breathe
She reaches for my shield
She deems me worthy to enter the hall
To see Valhalla's glorious gates
I will see my brothers, one and all
The Norns have given me this fate
Take me away, beautiful Valkyrie
Take me to where I belong
Take me to the place I need to be
Were I can drink mead and sing victory songs
I want to be under Odin's watchful eye
As we wait for Heimdallr to blow his Gjallarhorn
Until then, the good times will never die
As we train for Ragnarök until the early morn.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

BIRTHDAY GIRL

You're far away but I still think of you all the time
I'm hoping that I'm also on your mind
Today is the day that you turn a year older
But you're still so beautiful and even more bolder
I wish I was there to celebrate with you
I should be on a jet, flying into the blue
To be there with you as you blow out the candles
And to be there when you drink more than you can handle
But if you fell, I would be right there to pick you up
And into the early morning we would talk about stuff
It would all be just like the way it was before
Life has kind of sucked since you're not around anymore
And even though you're far away in another country
I can still hear your voice and the nicknames you called me
One day we will come together once again
And at that time we will become much more than just friends
I should have told you how I felt before you left
At telling my feelings I should have been more deft
But it's too late now and you are somewhere far away
I would tell you everything If I saw you today
Even though you're on the other side of the world
I just want to wish you a Happy Birthday, girl.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

Monday, July 22, 2013

CARDIGAN AND ALAIA

He was a lonely man, used to sleepless nights
He was a warrior and only lived for the fight
The warrior without a heart is what he was
He had a heart but it was cut off from the world with stone walls
The only thing he knew was the way of steel
The only thing in his life that felt so real
That's all he had and nothing else mattered
But she came into his world and his views were shattered
She was a dream, with a warrior's heart like his
He never thought a woman like her could ever exist
Her hair looking like threads of pure gold
She warmed up his heart which was so ice cold
A woman that learned the ways of the sword
Was a woman highly esteemed, with beauty beyond words
For the first time in his life, he actually felt fear
Of saying the wrong thing whenever she came
The warrior who stared death in the face and laughed
Is now so timid and nervous whenever she would pass
She made feelings he never felt before start to grow
He would fight an army and die for her in the coldest snow
He would search for the rarest flower just to see that smile
A smile that could brighten up the roadways for many miles
Her eyes had a way of looking straight into his soul
And whatever was on his mind, she would already know
The world would pass by and fade into mist
When she came close and kissed him on the lips
For the fist time in his life, Cardigan had something to live for
She is all that's good in his world and so much more.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

A NEW WEEK

Another new week, what will it bring?
Will it bring new adventures and stories to tell?
Will I finally feel good about accomplishing something?
Will the week just suck and every day be hell?
Will I finally see the goals that I try to pursue?
The ones that always seem to be out of reach
I'm hoping that that one dream comes true
The one that comes to me as I'm fast asleep Will it be a week of failure or one of success?
Will I finally get stuck out of this endless rut?
Will I just give up and buckle under the stress?
Or will I dig down deep again and never give up?
Who knows what will happen, I'll see what unfolds
Here we go again, I'm walking out of that door
Heading out into a world that can be so cruel and cold
Wondering what could possibly be in store.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

SHE MISSES ME

What could have been if you never left here
Maybe I would have been happy now in this current year
But she left and so did my reason to smile
I think about her during the day every once in a while
I see the pictures of her and she's as beautiful as ever
I wish nothing but luck for her on her current endeavour
I look down at my phone and what do I see
She sends me a text and says how much she misses me
In another world and another time, maybe we could live the dream
We could rule a kingdom as king and queen
I would adore you as your smile lights up the universe
You're the most precious treasure on the face of this earth
Even though now that dream will never be
For the first time in months I smiled because she said she misses me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DESTROYER

I ruin everything I touch, it crumbles and turns to dust
Metal corrodes and starts to turn to rust
I'm no good to anyone, I'm a worthless man
I deserve to be deserted in a barren wasteland
I do the wrong things but I don't me to
I guess I'm just an idiot, a real life fool
I'm a major screw up, that's why I'm all alone
I deserve to never find love and on my own
For the rest of my life because I'm a horrible human being
I'm that monster in the mirror I continue to see
It's just better that people stay away
I'd probably end up ruining their lives anyway
I'm just a destroyer, nothing good will ever come from me
I'm just a destroyer, alone and sad is where I need to be.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WORTHLESS

I'm no good to no one, I'm a piece of shit
Maybe I should pick up the knife and just fucking end it
I'm a scumbag, no good to anyone I have nothing else
I'll just do the world a favor and kill myself
No one will miss me, no one will care
I know how life can be so unfair
I don't want to die but this is what I'll do
I'll kill myself as a favor to you
I have nothing to look forward to, I'm welcoming death
I'm no good to anyone I'm ready to take my last breath
This world can be cold I have no one to trust
Goodbye to it all I'm going to give up.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

NICE GUY

No matter what, I'm always wrong in the end
Being a nice guy means you'll never have friends
Always caught in the middle of a valley between two peaks
Always end up being the worst when you only want to make peace
Always getting hurt because you wear your heart on your sleeve
People calling you blind because you don't see what they see
But all you want to do is make peace with all people
You just want to so good in this world but you're always called evil
You're always the scumbag, always the jerk
Always the one stressed out, always feeling the hurt
I can understand why people become cold bearted
To stop caring for people, to make their souls hardened
It's better that way because you won't feel any pain
You can do what you want with no reasons to explain
You can make your own choices without being in the middle
You won't care about accusations that keeps your head on a swivel
You won't be made out to be the bad guy in every situation
You won't feel alone in this antisocial nation
But I am the nice guy so I'm always wrong in the end
I'm the nice guy so I'll end up with no friends.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

You're beautiful but not because society says so
You're beautiful because of the many things you know
You're beautiful regardless of your shape and size
You're precious soul is where your true beauty lies
Ignore the magazines and television commercials
They're only designed to bring you down and hurt you
Taking away from the beauty that you really have
The beauty that you don't see and it makes me sad
Don't let anyone tell you that you're less than a queen
Ignore the negativity and pursue your dreams
You're worth so much more than what people can see
To hell with this vain society, I think you're beautiful to me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

SORRY

Mistakes have been made
That I wish I could take back
Just thinking all day
Why did I say and do that?
I was a fool, how could I be so dumb?
I only want to apologize
My whole body went numb
When I saw the look in your eyes
I have so many issues, hope you understand
I'm only human with a broken soul inside
I want to make it up to you, I know I can
I can't shake the feeling of being an asshole
For the rest if my life I'll never forgive myself
I'm so sorry, I want you to know
But please understand I'm poor in mental health
You'll never talk to me again and that I do deserve
For being a heartless person I said I'd never be
I wish I could take back every single word
I'll understand if you'll never forgive me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

Sunday, July 21, 2013

HOSPITAL POEM

Beep, beep, beep,
It's so hard to sleep
IV on my vein
At least I'm not in pain
Weird dinner in a bowl
At least it wasn't cold
Other patients chatter
Telling nurses what's the matter
Doctors rushing to and fro
What's wrong with me? They don't know
Lying in observation
Lost in concentration
In comes a visiting friend
One that's loyal until the end
After a talk, now he's gone
But here I still lie as time marches on
Beep, beep, beep
It's so hard to sleep.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

IF YOU SAW ME, YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT

Words behind a computer are merely words
They mean so much more when it's actually heard
So when someone says behind a screen that I'm not ugly
They wouldn't say that if they really saw me
I know what I see and what people have said
They're only nice to me just to mess with my head
But when I'm seen in real life the hammer drops
Hurtful words are said but I'm never shocked
How come no one in real life has said anything good
Why do I have to hide my ugly face behind a hood
Even in the heat of summer I have to hide my face
Because this world can be such a vile and cruel place
It's easy to say behind a screen that I'm not ugly
But I know you wouldn't say the same thing if you really saw me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

FAKE IT

Even though I'm sad, I have to pretend I'm happy
So I won't have to hear people complain
I'll smile even though I think life's crappy
And I'm in a ton of pain
I guess I can do that and act like a big phony
And smile and laugh all the time
But in a sad reality, I'm just down and lonely
But I'll pretend I'm in a good state of mind
Then people will stop telling me to cheer up
When I really have no reason to cheer
Because I had nothing but bad luck
Right now I could really use a beer.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR

Yes, I'm worthless, yes I'm a loser
Now could you stop being a verbal abuser?
I know I'm nothing, a worthless piece of shit
Now that I have admitted it, could you please just quit?
I'll never succeed in life, everything I do is wrong
Are you happy now? Stop singing the same song
I'll never fall in love, I'll always be alone
I'm telling you what you want to hear, let me go home
I'm fat, ugly and nothing, have you heard enough?
I'm admitting the truth so please just loosen up
Please just leave me alone, I'm telling you what you want to hear
So I know what you'll say to me the next time I come near
If I had feelings left, those words would hurt
But I can't feel anymore, it's a gift and a curse
I know what I am so please don't remind me
I know that a life of misery is all that I'll ever see.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

BY MYSELF

Just leave me alone
Don't bother me anymore
Leave me be in my home
Why are you bothering me for?
I'm not in the mood, just go away
Stop telling me its good for my health
I don't want to be around people, I want to be by myself
I don't feel like going outside
Really, what for and why?
To go outside and enjoy the sun?
Didn't you hear me, I don't want to be around anyone
Don't force me to do something that I don't want to do
Stop trying to change me, I'm nothing like you
Don't entice me with lies like I'm going to meet someone
I'm forever alone, One of depression's many sons
Please, don't bother my let me read in the dark
Stop filling me with ideas and messing with my heart
There's nothing outside for me so I'll stay inside
Safe and alone, where solitude really resides
This is where I can't be hurt, when I'm by myself
Shut off from the world and everyone else.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

ONE PERSON

It only takes one person to ruin a day
To blow all of those good feelings far away
To bring down everything you do and turn it to trash
To undo all the work that you thought would last
To crush your dreams and turn it into nothing evermore
I wish today I didn't open that door
I should have pretend that I wasn't home
I would have, if I had only known
That being the door would be the one I didn't want to see
Sometimes it really sucks to live life as me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

VICTORY

They said it wouldn't happen
They said I would fail
They told me good luck
They threw me out on my ass
They wanted me to fall
They wanted me destitute
I showed them wrong
I went and succeeded
I overcame the odds
I now am moving on
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

Saturday, July 20, 2013

RISE OF THE SUNFLOWER WARRIOR (REDEMPTION)

In the morning air, the dew still wet on the ground
All that is heard is the clash of steel on steel
They clang together as the guards begin to gather around
To see who will win in this beautiful green field
No one will interfere, they know the rules
They know who the Sunflower Warrior is and what she stands for
They know what Asha did to her and made her feel the fool
And they remember the words that she once swore
All of the pain of what happened comes back to her mind
No more tears will fall from her face after this day
This fight will seem like just a moment in time
As the both of them battle away
Years of training at Crenwell has all paid off
Asha is struggling to find off all her blows
Until she was too slow and her life ended with one last cough
And Asha fell to the ground, pained and slow.
With her last breath she mouthed she was still defiant
And denied all the pain she caused
The Sunflower Warrior stands above her, triumphant
They legally fought by the way of the laws
She stared at the guards with rage in her face
And demanded to have the gates opened at the Iron Walls
Without a word, they opened them with haste
And she walked through them, standing tall
Now she must find the one she seeks
As everyone stares at her with shock
She stared back at them but none of the speak
The see her staff and her they won't dare mock
She wasn't the same person when she left here in tears
She has grown into a full warrior now
No longer will she be a slave to her fears
As she walks past staring eyes, proud and unbowed......
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

QUEST FOR THE NORTHERN CROWN (ACROSS THE BLACK SEA)

The ship glides through the inky black sea
Nothing can be seen beneath the surface
Heading to wherever the Northern Crown could be
Everyone on the ship is quiet and nervous
They're going to a direction no one has came back from
They all stand tall and brave
As no birds fly in the afternoon sun
The only sounds were the smacking of the waves
As they splashed against the hull
The heroes were tight lipped but still they were brave
Sailing on through the afternoon that was dull
Suddenly, a roar came from the side of the ship
A leviathan emerged from the water
Everyone aboard was thrown about with the hit
All were fearful for their slaughter
Dorian bravely went up to the bow
Stone of Galderissia in hand
He knew its use would be needed now
As his arms slowly began to expand
Arcs of blue lightning emerged in its wake
Hitting the leviathan as it let out a scream
It fell back into the sea as the air smelled baked
The whole experience felt so serene
Just when they thought that it was all done
The leviathan came back up to attack
Alaya took out her bow where she was from
And fired three arrows just like that
The arrows sank into the leviathan's skin
And right into its heart
It went right back within
The water that was so dark
The strange silence was back once again
As they sail forward, they see a weird light
Was this the Northern Crown and have they neared the end?
Questions remain as they sail into the beginning of night.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

RISE OF THE SUNFLOWER WARRIOR (THE IRON WALLS OF REEDENBRIDGE)

The sunflower warrior has made her return
She's back where she started
Through the journey much she has learned
From the day when she parted
She sees the green fields and realize she's home
She stares ahead at the Iron Walls
Inside is all that she has ever known
The walls are still majestic and shine in the sunlight
The guards of Reedenbridge are high in the tower
Weapons at the ready if there is a fight
Showing the glorious kingdom's rank and power
As she gets closer, she can see her goal
This time around, she won't fail the test
She's going to get back what many have stole
So finally at last she can have a peace of mind and rest
She's back for the one who stole her peice of mind
She's coming back to take what is hers
And there's no way that she'll fail this time
She'll be laughing instead of the one being laughed at
For this is the day of her triumph over her fears
It's time for her to erase the tragedies of her past
And to dry up those endless tears
As she gets to the gates of the Iron Wall, what does she see?
She sees Asha, the source of most of her pain
The one who pushed her down with her endless ridicule
Asha laughs as she sees the Sunflower Warrior coming
But that was a mistake Because it became her fuel
For the need for redemption and she started running
A scream of revenge came from here in an endless cry
Years of frustration comes out in rage
Asha yells: "Today Sunflower Warrior you will die!"
Their blades clash together and sparks fly away
The guards watch on but don't interfere
Because they know who she is
The fight for redemption begins right here
As The Sunflower Warrior's battle truly begins.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HEALING TOUCH

It's all melting away
The pain and fear
It was gone the day
That you came near

I didn't want to live
I just wanted to die
That love you give
Touches me inside

Awakening feelings
I thought were dead
My mind's reeling
From what you said

Healing the scars
That wouldn't heal
Breaking the bars
Making things real

Touching my face
not being disgusted
Taking me to a place
I never trusted

What could you see
In my empty shell
I'm just too ugly
I hate myself

Your touch is healing
Many years of being alone
Such a strange feeling
But it's becoming like home

IF HE ONLY HAD HER HEART

He sees her from afar and secretly admires
A smile from her sets his soul on fire
She fuels him day and night as he practices with the sword
He could write legends about her without her saying a word
He would give it all just to take her by the hand
His powerful kingdom and his inherited land
He would give it all away for her without a second thought
He has multiple caves of gold but her heart can't be bought
A simple dance with her would be a dream come true
He would fight for her honor if that was the least he could do.
He would give it all for her heart
And from her arms he would never part
She would finally give him something worth fighting for
Instead of going out and fighting in these pointless wars
So elegant a woman, she moves with such grace
On a cloudy her aura lights up the darkest place
But it will never because he was promised to another
All for these stupid royal lines and the wishes of his mother
But that maiden is the one he really wants to be with
If the stars granted a wish, he would want it to be this
To have the heart of the woman that he really loved
And not be with someone only because she has royal blood
But still, he sees her and admires her from afar
As he makes his wish upon the Morning Star.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

Monday, July 8, 2013

CALMNESS IN THE FACE OF DEATH

The food is stuck in my throat I can't breathe
On my own, alone, a way out I can't see
Trying to swallow but the food isn't going down
This is the end, the way I'm going to die
I'm not sad, a tear isn't falling from my eye
I'm staying calm and I'm starting to see spots
Waiting for the moment until my heart slows and stops
With one last chance I exhaled and the food came out
The sweet air entered me as I breathed in and out
I sit down stunned, thinking of what could have been
Just like that, my life was about to end
And to think, I would have died cold and alone
Like I thought I would in my lonely home.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

AS HOPE FADES.......

Lost in my thoughts as I'm watering the plants
Wondering in this life if I'm ever going to get the chance
To have that feeling of what love feels like
Or am I just meant to be alone in this blight
There's someone for everyone, at least that's what they say
There's no one for me but I don't want it that way
Just heartbreak after heartbreak destroying my soul
I'm just an empty soul, far from being whole
Everyone around me is finding someone to love
But I'm still all alone at the edge of a cliff, waiting to be shoved
The days and years just keep flying by
No end of this loneliness in sight and I wonder why
Watering the garden, just trying to cope
With being all alone and slowly losing hope.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE GOLDEN HAIRED GODDESS IN THE RAIN

Just another cloudy day, as the rain pours down
I was making my way walking downtown
Lost in my own thoughts and my imagination
When I saw something that became a fascination
She was walking, coming out of a phone store
She looked like some woman straight from folklore
Hair that was spun from gold, she had me mesmerized
A Goddess like this in my small town? I was surprised
Her eyes were stunning, it was something from a dream
I'm standing there, speechless, what does this mean?
My dreams came true in the middle of the sidewalk
If only I could have mustered up the courage to talk
But I said nothing as she walked by
I just turned the music up and let out a sigh
In my own world, I'm a warrior fighting without fear
But a woman can make me nervous when she comes near
Things always turn out different when it comes to real life
As I walk on in the rain and think of this poem to write
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

I LOVE THE WAY YOU HATE ME

Keep telling me how useless I am
I love to hear those words
Tell me that I'm less than a man
Maybe this is what I truly deserve
Beat me down until I can no longer get up
The sick side of me loves the pain
Tell me I'll never succeed, I'm fat and I suck
Slowly those painful words are making me insane
I'm on the ground where you wanted me, just finish the job
Might as well finish it, I have nothing to look forward to
Like you said before, I'm an ugly worthless fat slob
And I'm stupid enough to keep talking to you
Maybe deep down I love it because I know that's actuality
Maybe I am worthless loser that you always call me
And I'll amount to nothing, and live a sad reality
And sadness and misery is all I ever will see.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

MAKE IT STOP

I hate this feeling
I want it to end
I'm hitting the ceiling
I truly need a friend
This sadness inside
Is so hard to take
I wonder why
I have such self hate
I can't stop my mind
From these thoughts
Cries in the night
Despair has been wrought
Stop this endless nightmare
Feeling so cold and alone
Reaching out, but no one's there
In this lonely home
Someone heal me
From this pain I feel
All of this can't be
But it's far too real.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone