Tales From My Imagination: April 2014

Saturday, April 19, 2014

COULD IT BE?

Could it be? Could my dreams have come true?

I'm lying in bed, looking at you

Your flowing hair, so beautiful and fine

Your wonderful face and beautiful eyes

Feeling you against me is such a wonderful thrill

The warmth of you sends away all the chills

You look at me and I know that this isn't a dream

I think the luckiest man in this world I see

Waking up with you, talking about anything

About our future and what it may bring

Getting up and taking a walk while holding hands

I don't think, now I know that I'm the luckiest man

You understand me more than I understand myself

You're the best I'll ever have, there will be no one else

Your smile and laugh gives me joy in life

You are the moon that shines through my night

I love your imperfections, they're beautiful to me

Even on your bad days, with you I want to be

I will care for you always, like a delicate flower

There is no just me, everything I have is ours

I look at your glow in the morning sunshine, simply amazed

A simple kiss from you can make me face the day

Thank you for choosing me, you have given me peace

You make me strong when I feel so weak

Thank you for doing everything that you do

Now I know that love in this world can be true

You have my heart, there's no need for me to wander

Everytime I look at you, my heart only becomes fonder

Thank you for saving me from the pit of despair

When no one else would and I was breathing dead air

You have given life to a once dying soul

You will have me always as we both grow old

And even then you be more beautiful than before

And even then I will love you so much more

So grateful that with you I have shared an entire life

My best friend, soul mate and beautiful wife

If I could do it all over again, I would still want to do it all with you

As I stare at your eyes, still beautiful and true

I hold your hand as you tenderly kiss me

In our old age, bonded for life, I'm as happy as can be

Back to the present, this is all that I see

If you were to choose me, it really could be.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

MALESTROM OF THOUGHTS

Will I always be alone?

Will my heart ever find a home?

Should I leave everything and travel the world?

Just disappear and let adventures unfurl?

Would anyone really care if I died?

Would people be sad, would people cry?

Will my life end without passing on my genes?

Without a child, or no woman of my dreams?

Am I as ugly as how I look in the mirror?

And that's the reason women won't come nearer?

Why do women day they want nice guys?

But when one comes near, they push him aside?

But they go off with the jerk with good looks instead

And end up getting hurt when jerks mess with their heads

Is being a kind person just a waste of time?

The cruel get ahead while the kind stay behind

Why do these thoughts keep plaguing my mind?

HAPPY FOR HER

As all are applauding at the news

He hides in the corner, lost and confused

He cared for her more than he ever will

He loved her so but she chose him still

She told him all the time that he caused her pain

When he kicked her out of the car in the rain

But still, she chose him for her future life

The news stabbed at him like a knife

And there he was, depressed and alone again

Heart broken again, it will never mend

But he had to pretend that he was happy to see

The one he loved and that they would never be

He treated her kindly but she pushed him away

Isn’t that what she wanted, to be treated that way?

But she chose the one who never really cared

She chose the one who would never be there

She chose the one who would smash her phone

And would lose his mind whenever she left home

He would never have yelled at her, called her names

He would have been sane, not crazy and deranged

But she chose him, he had to stand there and smile

His world was crumbling and he wanted to cry like a child

But he had to stand there and be happy for her

Thinking back to the times that once were

When he so adored to her her wonderful laugh

Those days were officially a thing of the past

His soul was dying and he had to be happy for her

He was crushed and broken but he had to be happy for her.

GENTLE DREAM

I had a dream of you and me last night

A dream that you were holding me tight

In a beautiful field out in the warm sun

In that moment, Two became one

Of course I woke up to my pitiful life

No happiness, no loving wife

Just me, all alone as I always will be

There’s no other half for someone like me.

EATING ALONE

In this restaurant I sit and look around

Others are eating, not saying a sound

They're alone too, absorbed in their food

This is a place for loners, where the food is good

I wish I was here with someone else

The reality is I'll always be by myself

Not by choice, because no one else will

Ever care for me, I wish my feelings were stilled

I wish I could turn off this longing inside

It will never happen for me, alone I will die

I'm better off alone, that's what people say

They don't have to live with my sadness every day

The one thing I want in life will never come true

Things will never change, there's nothing I can do

I'll just silently eat and ignore the feelings of pain

As I look put the window and it slowly rains.

I MUST BE CRAZY

I must be crazy not to have any kids

Or to have never been married

It must be the way I live

Or this burden of ugliness I carry

This isn't the life I wanted or chose

I really tried, but no one wanted me

The sting of loneliness hits like boxer blows

I'm a crazy man, plain for all to see

I didn't lie to women to get them in bed

Or gave them promises that I couldn't keep

I never played games to mess with their heads

Leaving them hurt, scarred and unable to stop the weep

I never juggled women around like theywere just objects for sex

Or treated them like they were second class

I just treated every woman I met with utmost respect

And never said crude remarks as one would walk pass

Maybe I am the crazy one for being a gentleman

Because clearly that's not wanted on this earth

It will leave you lonely and with sadness without end

And never having an opportunity to see a new you through the miracle of birth

Yes, I'm crazy because nobility is no more

And lust instead of love reigns supreme

Sometimes I wonder what my purpose on earth is for

When the world wants nothing to do with a crazy man like me.

THE IMPOSSIBLE GOAL

Finding love is impossible for me

This endless sadness is all I'll ever see

I accept the fact I'll always be alone

A lonely person in an empty home

So full of love with no one to give it to

I'm unloved forever, there's nothing I can do

Rejected again and again, I'm out of hope

I'm just giving up, I'm at the end of my rope

There will never be someone who will truly love me

No matter how hard I try or want it to be

I just have to live life with a lonely heart

And always know that I'm stained with a loser mark.

MY WOOBIE

It’s with me wherever I go

It’s with me in packed crowds

Sun, clouds, rain or snow

It’s with me when noise is loud

Standing in a long line at a bank

Waiting for work to start

It stays with me by my flank

And is always near to my heart

I never leave home without it

Because without it, I’ll be bored

In this world where I don’t fit

I need it while I’m being ignored

I have some security and protection

From this weird and cruel world

My woobie points me in directions

Where my imagination can unfurl.

THE PLIGHT OF A BROKEN SOUL (THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN)

THE PLIGHT OF A BROKEN SOUL

(THE SUNFLOWER QUEEN)

She has to smile, she must laugh

So people will think nothing's wrong

She doesn't know how long she can last

Behind that smile is a broken soul, suffering for so long

Ignored and unappreciated for her beauty and strength

She cries silently before she goes to sleep

Hoping for a change that never seems to come

Behind that laugh she eternally weeps

Hoping to be saved by life from beyond the sun

She has so much to offer but nobody sees

The struggle she goes through in her life

A soul suffocating that yearns to breathe

Trapped in frozen water, trying to break the ice

More amazing in ways she doesn't know

Because she was always told she was the worst

The darkness never gave her a chance to glow

When she smiles, sunflowers grow all over the earth

They rejoice because they know she's their mother

A green crown adorns her because she is a queen

But she doesn't know because of mistreatment from others

And she lives a lifelong nightmare instead of a dream

If she only know of her importance and worth

Maybe then she could hold her head high

If she only knew of her royal blood and she should be put first

Now that she's alone again, she begins to cry

All she wants is a hand to lift her up again

So she can rightfully sit upon her royal throne

If she knew how glorious she was, her wounds would mend

No one lets her know so she's suffering alone

Instead of being treasured, she's constantly ignored

Not treated the way that she so deserves to be

Because of that, her soul is broken and won't be healed anymore

And that beauty inside no one will ever see.

WHAT I AM, WHAT I'LL NEVER BE

I'll never be a happy kind of person

That's not how I was made

I'm not outgoing, so the plot worsens

I'm a introvert who hides in a cave

I think of the glass as being half empty

Think about that before you use the words

That you can see yourself being with me

I walk through life in a sad, lonely blur

I think I'm ugly, no matter how many times I'm told

I'm not, but those are the thoughts in my head

Am I still someone you want to hold?

Or someone you wish to be far away from instead?

I can't be that person who's happy all the time

I can't be that person who likes to be in a crowd

I can't be that person who's always in the right frame of mind

I'm a quiet and shy person, not outgoing and loud

Can you truly accept me for the cracks in my soul?

For the imperfections that stain the person I am?

Can you see past those things and accept me as a whole?

Can you really accept me as a lonely broken man?

BECAUSE OF YOU

I miss you when I'm awake

I miss you in my dreams

The beautiful smile you make

It is paradise that I see

Your face is like the moon

Your eyes the twinkling of stars

Birthed from the universe's womb

So beautiful despite the scars

I wish for your simple kiss

I long for a warm embrace

Something simple like this

Would make the world a beautiful place

I would want to live again

When I look into your eyes

Hope has no end

I have finally found paradise

I want all of you, the good and the bad

I want the ups and downs

It doesn't matter if your mood is happy or sad

I'll always be around

It's only a pipe dream for you to be in my life

If it ever really did come true

You would melt my heart of ice

I would believe again and it would be because of you.

I just want to feel loved
And for someone to love me
I want to share my life and world
With someone who'll care
Someone who touches my soul
But there's no one there
It hurts so much
Knowing there will never be
Someone in this world
Who will ever accept someone like me
Who will open my eyes and help me see
Someone who will heal my broken soul
Who will take away the pain and tears
I want to feel alive again
To feel joy in life
Without having a special bond with someone
I don't know if I can enjoy life
I just want to love and be loved
To hear a voice that will soothe my soul
And ease the empty pain I feel inside me.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

YOU'RE RIGHT

You're right, I'm a disappointment to you
You'll criticize me no matter what I do
I'm never good enough, I always make mistakes
For once in your life, can you give me a break?
You always point out the bad and never the good
You treat me as an outsider like I knew you would
Call me a loser for not having a wife
Would it be better for you if I ended my life?
Say I'm useless for not having any kids
And you wonder why I don't travel to where you live?
You always break me down, make me feel like garbage
And always at the time when my life feels the hardest
I know, I know, I can't do anything right
Just leave me alone, I don't want to fight
Thanks for bringing me down to a low level again
Thanks for reminding me my sadness will ever end
Thanks for telling me I'll never have offspring
Or someone who'll love me, oh the sadness you bring!
Thanks for reminding me of the nothing that I am
I always knew that you never gave a damn
Thanks for reminding me that I'm such a screw up
You've made your point, haven't you had enough?
You're right, I'm nothing, is that what you wanted to hear?
I gave you want you wanted so don't come near
Goodbye all of those precious hopes and dreams
They wont come true anyway, this world is too mean
I'll always roam alone without anyone by my side
The endless sadness will forever be my bride.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE

Don’t listen to the mean words
Never let them bring you down
Don’t listen to the whispers that’s heard
They only want to take your crown
You know who you are
And that’s a genuine human being
Despite the painful scars
Your soul is beautiful and worth seeing
Don’t let others take away your glory
Don’t let them take away your smile
You’re still writing your life story
You have walked many miles
You deserve the peace you need
You deserve to be lifted up
You are a Sunflower Warrior Queen
And should be treated as such
Always be who you are and never change
Don’t let the world tear you apart
You’re normal and far from strange
You’re a person with a genuine heart.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THIS IS WHO I AM

I leave words unspoken
It gets me hurt in the end
It leaves me broken
And without friends

I have a calm and gentle heart
That leaves me alone
Love and I will always stay apart
A thought that chills me to the bone

My heart will never be touched
This I know is true
Hopes and dreams dashed to dust
There’s nothing I can do

I’ll still be the same
I can’t change who I am
Even though no woman will ever whisper my name
I won’t be bitter or angry at all
I will always be a kind hearted lonely man.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

IN THE RAIN

He stands there in the downpour
His heart forever broken
He's numb now, he can't feel anymore
What he saw will always be unspoken
His love, the one he lived for with someone else
Someone he held so sacred
He wish he didn't forget that book on the shelf
So he didn't see them naked
How long it was going on, that he doesn't know
His mind races as as the rain wets his skin
Why did she do this? He loved her so!
Still wondering when did all of this begin
He's broken forever, never to be the same
Stunned by this betrayal
The many times she whispered his name
He let's out an anguished wail
He falls to his knees unable to stand
Let alone lift his head
He can only look down at his shaking hands
Wishing that he was dead
How many of her whispers were lies?
Did she ever love him at all?
He feels so empty, unable to cry
So there are no tears to fall
He may be alive but he's dead inside
He will never love again
He quietly let's out a defeated sigh
Knowing he will never mind.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

STILL WAITING

STILL WAITNG

Still waiting, hoping, dreaming
She will say yes instead of no
Instead of saying let's just be friends
Or: "I wish I had a boyfriend like you."
Who could be more me than me?
Being passed by really sucks
But I'll still wait, hope, and dream
Not knowing if it well ever happen
If it's meant to be it will happen someday
But hope is getting dim
Time is running out
I guess I'll still wait
I have nothing better to do
Waiting for the one
Who will truly accept me
But I'm hard to accept
I'm too nice and kind
I care too much
I express my feelings
I'll never be accepted
I'll never find love
But still, I wait
For something that will never come.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

HER LAUGHTER

Her laughter cut me down
As she pointed at me
I felt like a stupid clown
And as worthless as could be
What was I thinking?
I knew she would say no
What was I drinking?
I still did it though
She did have a point
I was out of her league
My feelings broke at the joint
Look at me and look at her
A literal Beauty and the Beast
Tears making the world blur
As rejection dives in on its feast
“Me date you? Are you out of your mind?”
I guess I was, I’m such a fool
If I could go back a few minutes in time
Then things would still be cool
Her laughter cuts through me like a knife
As she thinks it’s a big joke
I guess rejection is a part of my life
I might as well give up on hope
I’ll always be lonely
Being a gentleman isn’t enough
If this wish would come true, if only
I wouldn’t think my life really sucks.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE RISK

I risk to tell the world who I am
So they can tell me I'm not a man
I risk to say I still believe in love
Even though no one else does
I risk to open myself to people
Even though so many are evil
I risk to say that I really do care
Even though others don't dare
I risk to say it's not all about sex
Even if I end up alone until death
I risk to be myself, even if it's strange
But the world tells me that I should change
I risk and dare to open my heart
Even though I know it will be torn apart
I risk it all, even though I always lose
I have to risk it, there's nothing else I can do
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THE STARCHILD PROPHECY

The legend says, or how it was told
That long ago, in the days of old
Beyond the stars a child was born
From the death of a star that was worn
With the power to create worlds
And save them, with just a wirl
Of his mighty sword, born from the Sirius star
Gazed by many in the sky but seen from afar
He is the child of the universe the giver of life
Who brings light into an endless night
He will come to save us all
He will hear our cries and call
Past our two moons he will ride
And hit the realm and the tides will rise
Along with it will come freedom from despair
His sword of justice will be raised in the air
Filing this world with light and destroying the dark
Those who oppose him will be torn apart
The starchild is coming, like the old books said
We have to look up at the sky and look ahead
For soon he will come and the wars will cease
Our world will be saved and we can live in peace
We await you, Sword of the Morning to make us free
For your sign from the stars that we will see.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

TIRED OF YOU

I’m tired of you judging me
Based on only what you can see
You call me fat and ugly
You say no one will ever love me
Maybe you’re right, maybe I will be alone
Maybe I will life a life forever on my own
You call me disgusting, a waste of life
With a grating voice as cold as ice
Maybe you’re right maybe I am a waste
Maybe I don’t deserve to live in this place
You call me a loser, I’ll never get ahead
To get those silly dreams out of my head
Maybe you’re right, I should give up on my dreams
They’ll never come true, that’s what it seems
You beat me down and crush me too
This is why I’m so tired of you
Get out of my head, stop telling me lies
Stop telling me that I should just drop and die
I’m not as ugly and fat as you think I am
I will achieve my dreams, I know I can
I will find someone who accept my heart
And her words will soothe me and hit the mark
You are the one who keeps dragging me down
I want you to leave, get out of my head now!
I’m tired of you telling me I’ll fail
Keeping me in this eternal jail
I’m breaking free from you and your grating voice
I won’t fall down to you anymore, I’ve made my choice
You won’t be the boss of me forevermore
I’m throwing you out and showing you the door
You won’t be taking me down, not without a fight
You creep in my mind but you will be done tonight
I choose to be free from my negative side
The light inside of the dark will start to thrive
And soon I’ll be able to live again
And the good feelings inside will have no end.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

ICY MORNING

Slipping down the stairs, almost falling
Phone is ringing, someone is calling
Of course, it had to be a wrong number
As I drive to work, awaking from my slumber
Thoughts of dreams from last night
Dreams of having a sword and a big fight
The same dreams that I always seem to have
Being cautious of the icy roads down the ave
Thick fog covers all, can only see a few feet ahead
Hoping I make it there in one piece and not end up dead
I make it here and it's gloomy and dark
Taking baby steps in this ice rink of a park
Running up the stairs, now I'm finally here Another day of work begins and I face it without fear.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

THERE FOR YOU

The world is pounding down on you
It seems no one cares
Despite all you have been through
There is someone who will be there
That one will be me
To listen to your tears and words
In the midst of a stormy sea
I will give you my comfort sword
I’m sorry you’re in pain
I’m sorry you feel so sad
I’ll give you an umbrella for the rain
So it won’t be so bad
The world is pounding down on you
It seems no one cares
Despite all you have been through
There is someone who will be there.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

DON'T LISTEN TO THEM

You don't need to change
Stay the way you are
You're far from strange
You shine like a star
Always be yourself
No matter what
When there's no one else
I'll help you up
I'll always support you
If that's what you need
In all that you do
Always take heed
If you need a friend
So you can get by
I'll be there then
Until water runs dry
I hope you know
You have a gift
Your words do glow
And they do uplift
You deserve everything
Your heart desires
I hope you find
The peace you seek
I think in time
That peace you'll achieve
When you're feeling bad
Always know this
There's someone who's glad
That you do exist.
©2014 Darryl Mouzone

Tales From My Imagination