NOT A MAN

NOT A MAN

I guess I'm not a man, that's what I say to myself
Because I don't see women as another notch on my belt
I have many other things on my mind instead of sex
I don't need to prove how tough I am by breaking necks
I would never utter words that would make a woman less than a queen
Because that's what she is, I hold her in high esteem
I would be grateful for the woman who would be with me
To see who I really am, past what they can physically see
I would be loyal to her and wouldn't have a desire to stray
She took a chance on me so I would never push her away
I wouldn't take her for granted as the days turned into years
She would light up my world every time she came near
But "real men" can't help but cheat
"Real men" only look at women like pieces of meat
"Real men" will always see a woman as something less
"Real men" have needs and cheating is what they do best
I don't want to "sell my oats" and sleep with as many women as I can
That doesn't interest me so I guess that means I'm not a man.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

SKIN

SKIN

Many get judged because of their skin
Called hateful names before one knows what's within
Echoes of the past is blamed for someone's skin
Leaving open cuts, never letting the heal begin
Some are hated for dating someone of a different skin
Even religious people call it evil and a sin
People will never move on because of someone's skin
This is the sad world that we live in
When will we stop judging one another because of their skin
And accept that person for who they are within?
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DRAMA

DRAMA

I don't want to be any part of your life
So stop dragging me into it
Yes, I know I may be nice
But I don't fall for bullshit
You act like you're innocent
But I know all about your threats
I heard about that incident
On you I won't waste my breath
Stop calling me to rescue you
I'm not a bodyguard up for hire
You're not liked for the things that you do
You manipulate people to do your desire
But I'm not that kind of fool
Who's going to get involved
I'm not going to be your tool
To fix the problems you can't solve
You're constant yelling is giving me a headache
You're causing nothing but stress
No more of this nonsense can I take
I'm not being dragged down into your mess
I want peace in my life but you only bring war
That's why from you I have to avoid
Don't ask why I don't want to see you anymore
You only want to fight and make lots of noise
Don't bother me with your soap opera
I don't want to know who's a "popcorn ho"
You're as dangerous as a chupacaba
You'll end up losing every friend you know
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

IT MUST BE THE TRUTH

IT MUST BE THE TRUTH

I'm not a nice guy, I only look out for myself
It's all about me and no one else
I have been that way ever since my youth
That's what family tells me so it must be the truth

I'm useless and do nothing, I'm just an asshole
I'm an evil person who has no soul
I'm heartless and my family has proof
At least that's what they say and it must be the truth

If I'm so horrible, why do you still talk to me?
Why do you wonder why I don't call for weeks?
So you can just bash me and bring me down?
And you wonder why I never want to be around?

But then again, I'm not a nice guy I only look out for myself
It's all about me and no one else
I have been this way ever since my youth
My family says I'm a useless asshole so it must be the truth
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

I CAN'T HELP IT

I CAN'T HELP IT

They tell me to stop, but I have nothing else
I can't help but constantly beat up myself
I have a mirror and see who I am
A broken soul slowly sinking in quicksand
There's no good in me, I'm a horrible person
No one will ever care because I lose them in desertion
I'm nothing to no one
I wish my life was done
Maybe then I won't feel pain
That I could never explain.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE UGLY TRUTH

THE UGLY TRUTH

I'm no hero in the world I create
I'm just a loser filled with self hate
I'm no strong Viking with a sharp sword
I'm just nothing, used to hearing hurtful words
I'm no handsome gentleman, sweeping women of their feet
I constantly get rejected by every woman I meet
I'm just a broken man just trying to cope
On the edge of madness, losing all hope
Eating the pain away but it always comes back
I'm on a road to ruin and I'm traveling fast
Not caring, I have nothing to look forward to
Empty days alone with nothing to do
I hate living this way, there's no point in life
Long walks with headphones on in the middle of the night
If there is a God, can't you see me suffering?
Can't you see how long I have been struggling?
It's useless, I might as well be talking to myself
I'm alone in this world, there is no one else
Life is supposed to be wonderful but it feels like a nightmare
Where people are cruel and nobody ever cares
I look inside and find nothing worthwhile
Just an ugly human being, disgusting and vile
I'll never find love because love hates me too
I guess in my lonely world there's only one thing to do
Stop daydreaming and hoping and see the ugly truth
There's no special someone waiting for me
There's no bright future for me to see
My only hope for rest is the day I take my last breath
To embrace the sweet darkness that comes with death.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE WOMAN WITH THE GOLDEN SWORD

THE WOMAN WITH THE GOLDEN SWORD

In the forest, she silently waits
For the ones not worthy, she will bate
One day, someone worthy will come
But until then, with the golden sword she is one
Time has no meaning because she is ageless
She has been in the forest as history wrote many pages
She's seen kingdoms become mighty and fall
From man to beast, she has seen one and all
Many came to her and tried to grab the sword from her hands
Many have died not being worthy but she still stands
Through the heat of summer and the cold of winter
She stands with the sword and her glory never grows dimmer
She waits for the one who is worthy to wield the sword
One that's truthful in their heart and in their words
One day that person will come and the sword she will give
So the good that's left in her world will continue to live
She never grows weary, she has a soul of fire
She has the strength that many all around admire
Armies have tried to wrestle the sword away But they ended up dying and no longer exist today
Many underestimate her strength but in the end they know
She's stronger then all of them when she begins to glow
Sorrow lies in her past and she has shed many tears
But she stays loyal to her duty year after year
Silently watching and waiting as the sun shines and the winds blow
When that person will come, no one really knows
But she stands there loyally as the seasons turn over and over again
Until she finds one worthy and her duty will end.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HER WHISPERS

HER WHISPERS

In the dark, all secrets are revealed
She has broken down my wall of steel
The protection is gone and my heart is exposed
My emotions are there, everything now shows
She knows all about the sadness I have inside
She knows everything that I try to hide
She knows how worthless I feel in this place
She knows that I think I have an ugly face
She knows all the pain and every dark thought
She knows that the self esteem is naught
But instead of beating me down a little more
She heals the wounds that have been open and sore
She whispers that I'm not ugly and have a beautiful soul
She whispers words that begins to make me whole
She whispers that I'm special and I'm not worthless
Words that gives a nobody like me some kind of purpose
She whispers these words in my ear as she pulls me close
Helping me face the pain that hurts me the most
She looks me in the eyes and refuses to turn away
She sees it all as my insecurities melt away
She whispers, she cares
She whispers, she's there
She whispers to me what I have been waiting to hear
And now because of her whispers I can face anything without fear.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE CRIES FROM BEYOND THE ICE

THE CRIES FROM BEYOND THE ICE

He hears her cries as he sits upright in bed
In the dark he blindly reaches for his sword
The cries for help are only in his head
But he wakes up, haunted by her words
He can see her as plain as day
Deep beyond the lands of ice
She's trapped, cold and locked away
Inside some evil device
He knows it's not a dream, she really needs help
And he must heed the call
And he knows that he must do this himself
As he runs blindly down the hall
He goes to his library and opens ancient books
Written in the times of old
He reads the writing with weird lines and hooks
And sees the story unfold
The voice he hears are the cries of Lady Elka
The Steel Riders tore her from her home
It was her pride, her only place of shelter
The only place that she had ever known
She's surrounded by ancient evil deep in the cold
A place where no man survives
It has already happened before as it once was told
And the hero in the story eventually dies
She's scared for her life and her he must save
Even though he knows what the outcome will be
He mus ignore his own life, rise up and be brave
The visions of her crying is all he can see
He feels her pain and it strikes his heart
To see her so tortured and in pain
Even though they're thousands of leagues apart
To save her is a goal he must attain
In the middle of the night before the sun rises
He gets on his horse and travels south
Who knows what will happen or what surprises
Will happen to him as he heads out.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

SANDCASTLES IN A MOMENT OF TIME

SANDCASTLES IN A MOMENT OF TIME

On this crowded beach he starts to build up moist sand
People walk by and his activities go on unnoticed
He begins to form a fantasy with his hands
To this craft he's entirely devoted
He doesn't feel the heat of the afternoon sun
As he starts to build up beautifully crafted towers
He won't notice the outside world until he's done
Building a castle beyond time with ancient powers
He begins to form banners and a beautiful moat
People begin to take notice and stop and stare
They stand and stare as he's daydreaming with hope
And wishing that he was really there
He daydreamed of being there ruling as a king
Alongside his beautiful wife
The sat and wondered if he really was such a thing
In another world, living a different life
His queen was beautiful and adored by all The people rained flowers upon her glory
Warriors ready to fight if they heard the call
To become a part of the kingdom's story
During his daydream, clouds started to form
But his sandcastle was almost complete
"It's starting to rain!", the people tried to warn
But he was caught up in his daydream
It started to pour and just like that
The sandcastle was reduced to to an unknown heap
He became soaked but was happy with the fact
That he made a sandcastle that looked so sweet
He had a fantasy in a moment of time
Of untold stories of dragons and lore
He created an entire world in his mind
With many places to be explored
He turned around to see his wife, standing there with a smile
It wasn't just a dream, in real life he did find his love
He stood up, embraced her and they stood there for awhile
Kissing as they were getting soaked in the torrential rain falling from above
He didn't care, and neither did she
Two lonely souls met and became one
Bonded together as happy as they could be
Knowing where the other one was coming from
In the pouring rain he held her, she was his love and best friend
People with umbrellas walked by and looked confused
They both never wanted this amazing feeling to end
Far away from the nightmares that they once knew
In this moment of time they have found something worth fighting for
As they take on the troubles of thus world, now united
Their flame of love will be lit forever more
As they made an oath to each other that they will never be divided.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DON'T CHANGE ANYTHING (PERFECT TO ME)

DON'T CHANGE ANYTHING (PERFECT TO ME)

I think you're perfect the way you are
We all have pasts that left is scars
We all have wounds that left is hurt and afraid
But that doesn't mean that you're bad in any way
You're not ugly, you're beautiful to me
I even like the cute way you sneeze
It may sound corny but I'm saying how I feel
I shut myself from the world and you broke the seal
You looked inside and saw something worthwhile in me
Something beautiful that I could never see
And I see the beauty that resides within you
The beauty that's beneath the skin, the beauty that stays true
Don't say you're too fat or that you're too old
Don't listen I the lies shallow society has told
You're a Goddess in my eyes who deserves respect
A woman that an army of knights would give their lives to protect
You're perfect to me, a valuable treasure on this green earth
You may not think so but you're perfect to me, for all it's worth.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

QUEST FOR THE NORTHERN CROWN (THE DRAGON'S WELL)

QUEST FOR THE NORTHERN CROWN (THE DRAGON'S WELL)

Further down they go, deeper into the castle
Until they reach the ancient hold
This long drawn out quest wasn't just a hassle
The legends were true that were once told
They're all amazed by the beauty within
These ancient, hallowed walls
Dorian looks around with a silly grin
As he looks and is amazed by it all
The Golden Queen, with her golden hair finally stops at a well
A strange golden glow is seen way down below
"My guests, this is the crown you're looking for"
"The one that has been talked about for ages"
"The crown that the great King Hawkshaw once wore"
"From the legend that was written down in pages."
She looks to the sky and calls out ancient words
A language that hasn't been heard in thousands of years
It sounded like singing to those that heard
The glow from the well turned as bright as the sun
All had to cover their eyes from the brightness in the room
Until the ancient words were said and done
It took some time for their eyes to adjust
And when they did, all the heroes could DL was gasp
There it was, the Northern Crown, on the head of King Hawkshaw's bust
They have found the Northern Crown at last
Dorian removed the crown, felt the weight in his hands
The mightiest king of all was a story that was true
The one who ruled all in the 11 lands
The one who was loyal and from evil he would eschew
The heroes kneeled in the glory of the queen
Her beauty outshines a thousand generations
She smiles again, giving the illusion of a sweet dream
Dorian knew why she ruled such a loyal nation
The quest is almost over, now for the long trip home
Going back to Kingdom where this all started
Back to where war and strife was all they've ever known
Where many moons ago, our heroes from there departed.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

EMPTY HOME

EMPTY HOME

Rough day at work
Was treated like a jerk
Going home to nothing at all
No one to talk to or call
By myself, feeling empty inside
Filling my emptiness with pie
It really does nothing to help
The hollow feeling inside myself
Can't laugh, can't even cry
All I can do is sit and wonder why
I'm living such a worthless life
Nowhere to go on this clear night.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE WIZARD'S CURIOUS CAT

THE WIZARD'S CURIOUS CAT

His master warned him about not eating the fish
But all day long that was his only wish
He stared longingly at the fish in the bowl
He even had dreams of eating it whole
Whenever he got close, the wizard shooed him away
But the wizard set off on a long quest today
"Be good, my pet and that fish don't touch"
"Behave while I'm gone and you will get much!'
Away went the wizard, out of the door
The cat looked outside until he couldn't see him no more
Then he turned his attention to his delicious meal
The fish in the bowl was going to be a good steal
He jumped up to the table where the fishbowl was
Licking his lips, he did exactly what a cat does
In goes his paw, deep into the water
The fish frantically swam trying to avoid the slaughter
The cat thought he knew his master so well
Little did he know that the wizard casted a spell
In a blink of time, the cat became a fish himself
In another fishbowl, in another room, on another shelf
And now he's living his worst nightmare
But it was his curiosity and disobedience that put him there
If only he listened to his master, He wouldn't be in this place
And somewhere, miles away, the wizard has a smile on his face
He knew that his cat wouldn't listen to him
He knew that he might as well have been speaking to the wind
He smiles and laughs, knowing what he'll come home to
But until then, the curious cat has plenty of thinking to do.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HEAL ME

HEAL ME

Turn my agony into pleasure
Heal me with your soothing touch
I want to feel happiness beyond measure
Shatter my fears into nothing but dust

Turn my sadness into something new
Replenish me like the grass that's wet with dew
I want to know what it's like to feel again
I want this torment to finally come to an end
Heal me with your soothing words
Tell me that a life alone isn't something I deserve
Take me away in your sweet embrace
From this nightmare to a beautiful place

Calm the eternal tempest with your beautiful smile
And bring the sunlight back in for just a little while
Turn me away from the endless storm that I always see
Please end the endless pain and finally heal me.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

RESTRICTIVE (NO FREEDOM IN WORDS)

RESTRICTIVE (NO FREEDOM IN WORDS)

I can't say this I can't say that
Sorry, that's not me and where I'm at
You remove very poem that I post
Your silly guidelines is what I hate the most
Poetry is supposed to be expressive but you choke it out
You're really for poetry, that's something I doubt
Deleting my post because it doesn't meet your rules
Too personal?  Do you really take me for a fool?
Don't call poetry expression if you won't let me express myself
When it's clearly a case of favoritism towards everyone else
I'm the only one that gets singled out all the time
You don't want me to post in your community, okay that's fine
I bid you goodbye and I'll just move on
It's not like you care that now I'm long gone
But no one tells me how and what I should write
You won't choke out the creativity that's in my life
Your moderators won't stop the words inside me
That fill me every day and beg to be free
So I had to say goodbye and finally leave
But there's many other communities in the G+ sea.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

YOU HAVE NO IDEA

YOU HAVE NO IDEA

You have no idea of the pathetic life I live
I have been worthless ever since I was a kid I was nothing and that's what I'll always be An invisible man that no one will ever see
Heading through the paths of an endless maze
Feeling lonely and confused for the rest of my days
Seeing other people happy, an emotion I'll never feel
This endless self hate is all that will be real
I guess this is what I deserve, the punishment fits the crime
I'm lost, beaten and tortured by my own mind
By a voice that beats me down on a daily basis
I'm an ugly nothing in a sea of beautiful faces
Never deserving, dying of a disease no one can cure
This is something that I'll always have to endure.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

AM I WEIRD?

AM I WEIRD?

Am I weird if I think that it's not all about sex
And want to connect with someone on an intellectual level?
That I don't want to go from one woman to the next
To be with one woman, in that I would revel?
Is it weird to want to treat a woman with respect
And treat her like the mother of creation like she is
To want to be loyal only to her until death
And for her love that would be the reason I exist?
Am I weird for thinking this way?  I really need to know
Am I wrong or the last of a dying breed?
Just walking and laughing with her in wind driven snow
Would be all that I would ever want and need
Looks wouldn't matter, as long as she truly cared
For her, I would let the defensive armor fall
I would open up to her and for anyone else I wouldn't dare
I would do anything for her, only my name she would have to call
Am I weird for being and feeling like this?
That I have much more than a one track mind?
Maybe I am weird or something is amiss
I wonder, as I take a deep look inside.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

RETURNING TO THE STARS

RETURNING TO THE STARS

He lived a long life, full of adventure and battles
He beat the best fighters and made their bones rattle
He found a loving wife he loved for all his life
And his thoughts were about her every day and night
But this night is different, he knew it was his time to die
To begin the journey upwards, into the sky
To be at home once again with the stars that gave him birth
He lies down and prepares for his soul to leave the earth
His breathing shallow as his loving wife looks on
Tears falling from her face because she knows he will be gone
Father sky has heard his wishes as he breaths his last breath
His vision dims until there is nothing left
Everything seems so far away as it feels like he's flying
He can still hear his wife's anguished crying
Higher and higher he travels into the atmosphere
He's blinded by the lights of all the stars here
He made it home, back where everything started
The beginning of the universe, where his soul was first parted
And sent through space and time by the death of a star
He came to be as a baby, crying with a birthmark as a scar
But now he's back were he belongs and he feels so fine
With many other souls in the celestial bond beyond mortal time
Here he will wait until his beloved wife makes the journey
So once again her beautiful soul he will see
And there they will be together until the universe collapses
But until it does for billions of years their love will be lasting.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

I GIVE UP

I GIVE UP

You have won, I give up
I'm beaten down, I have had enough
Forget about dreaming, they've all been crushed
And everything always seems to be out of touch
More bad news on this stressful day
I wish I had wings and I could just fly away
I want to be far away from the position I'm in
But that's not possible, this madness will never end
I'm throwing out the white flag, I'm just done
Nothing but bad news has been what this day has become
People always say that things will get better
But all I keep seeing is nothing but stormy weather
Nothing will get better, things will only get worse
Sometimes I question the reason of my birth
Was it really to live this life of bad news and misery?
Is this how I'm going to make my mark on history?
So much for hope, there's no use for it now
Stressed about everything as I look at the clouds
I give up, I'll be stuck in this rut for life
As it slowly turned my warm heart as cold as ice
Dark skies overhead and I'm waiting for the rain
My life will always be filled with emotional pain.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

QUEST FOR THE NORTHERN CROWN (THE GOLDEN QUEEN)

QUEST FOR THE NORTHERN CROWN (THE GOLDEN QUEEN)

As their boat docked at the shore and they all got off
They were greeted by a woman with golden hair
Her smile gave them warm comforting thoughts
As she introduced herself as the Queen of Telafair
They were cut of at the splitting of the world
But they didn't die, they prospered instead As they walked with her and the kingdom unfurled
The rushing waterfall almost drowned out everything they said
The Queen was a glorious one, she moved with grace
The people who bowed and she greeted then with smiles
It seemed the sun smiled at the sight of her beautiful face
That made the old ones laugh like they were a child
But the most awe inspiring sight that they came upon
Was seeing the large golden dragon that flew overhead
It bent its head as the queen kiss him and called him New Dawn
She was the keeper of the Eternal Fire
She's the mother of a forgotten nation
The heroes were silent, full of desire
To find the Northern Crown but they must be patient
They made their way in the castle, warmed by dragon's breath
The mighty warriors held shields with golden flames
That can't be possible, they should burn to death
But they're they are holding their shields at the ready
To protect their Kingdom for the glory of the queen
The pace they went through was slow and steady
As they entered the castle that seemed like a dream
Could the Northern Crown be here?  Is the quest finally done
So many leagues traveled, many adventures to tell
The Dragon Flag flaps in the gleam of the sun
As they all make their way to the Dragon's Well.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

QUEEN OF THE RED ARMY

QUEEN OF THE RED ARMY

She rides her mighty horse, overlooking the valley
Her beautiful red hair flowing in the sun
Her loyal warriors make sure her life won't end tragically
They truly are an army of one
She's the queen of a people whose hair is flame red
Locked away from the rest of the world
More than once other armies tried to kill them all dead
The men, women, boys, and girls
She built up an army of her strongest fighters
And they all overlook the land
The archers are in the mountains, looking up higher
To pick off any enemy they can
Her only son is an heir to her glorious rule
His hair just as red as his mother
Through him will live on the house name Bruel
And so will the red army of brothers
Many have tried to win her heart
But her heart is with her people
And from them she will never part
And will always fight against evil
Her beauty outshines anything in the sky
As she keeps her people safe
She will be loyal to them until the day she dies
In this legendary steel age.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

I WISH I KNEW

I WISH I KNEW

I wish I knew what it was like to be wanted
For someone to love me and feel needed
But that will never happen and I'll always be haunted
By the ghost of misery, one I should have heeded

I wish I knew what it was like to feel
I have no feelings, my heart is numb
I have developed a wall of pure steel
And it opens up for no one

I wish I knew what it was like to feel affection
To finally have something worth living for
So much sadness has been in my direction
I don't think I can smile anymore

I wish I knew what it was like to laugh
To enjoy a walk in the park with someone
To hold her hand as others walked past
And I felt the warmth of the beautiful sun

I wish I didn't feel so alone
Every day passes by, nothing changes
A broken man in an empty home
Silence rules the air, heavy and tainted

I wish I could find beauty within myself
Instead of finding nothing worthwhile inside Until I find it, I can't be with anyone else
That's why I'll always be alone until the day I die.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

AN IMPOSSIBLE DREAM

AN IMPOSSIBLE DREAM

I keep having that same dream
A dream that will always be out of reach
I'm always tortured by this, it seems
Every single day of the week
I keep dreaming that I'll find someone who will love me
Accept me for the person that I am
Some who could look past me being so ugly And see more than just a hideous man
Someone who would give me something to look forward to
Instead of looking forward to nothing at all
Someone who could see my heart that's true
And break through the concrete solitary wall
Someone who will save me from myself
And stop the endless self hate and pain
Someone who will heal me and bring back my health
So I can finally see the sunrise again
A dream so farfetched it will never come to be
I have already accepted this as pure fact
No woman on this planet will ever be with me
The reality of being alone forever is a pain that will always last.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WORDS OF HURT OVERHEARD

WORDS OF HURT OVERHEARD

You didn't think I heard you but I heard what you said
I don't know if this is a way to get in my head
If you hated me so much then you should have said something
Instead of being nice to my face and saying nothing
You think I'm crazy, then say it in front of me
Don't say it behind my back to start controversy
This is why I would rather stick to myself
Don't talk to others about my mental health
Because I see a therapist, that makes me insane?
Do you have any idea how those words cause such pain?
Obviously you don't because I'm going because of you
You're far from perfect and you make mistakes too
You have a real nice way to kick someone while he's down
Maybe it would be better if you never came around
Instead of telling me that you missed me so much
Don't talk behind my back, just be quiet and hush
And telling other people about me who don't know
But then you smile and hug me all for a big show
I don't need that in my life, I'm going through enough
Thanks for ruining my mood with your corrosive touch
It was a good morning, but not anymore
I wonder what other sneaky things you have in store
Family matters should stay with family and that's it
It's an unwritten rule that you broke and you thought I'd miss
Whatever you say about me comes back somehow
But at least I know I can't trust you with personal stuff now
Don't ask and wonder why I never give you a call
Don't be so nice to me when you don't care at all
There's no one that cares about me but I always knew this
I know that hope in this world is useless and hopeless
But now that truth has been fully affirmed And I'll never forget this lesson of pain that I learned.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

HEALING TOUCH

HEALING TOUCH

It's all melting away
The pain and fear
It was gone the day
That you came near

I didn't want to live
I just wanted to die
That love you give
Touches me inside

Awakening feelings
I thought were dead
My mind's reeling
From what you said

Healing the scars
That wouldn't heal
Breaking the bars
Making things real

Touching my face
not being disgusted
Taking me to a place
I never trusted

What could you see
In my empty shell
I'm just too ugly
I hate myself

Your touch is healing
Many years of being alone
Such a strange feeling
But it's becoming like home

It's all melting away
The pain and fear
It was gone the day
That you came near
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

YOU'RE NOT WELCOME

YOU'RE NOT WELCOME

I will always see you as the wrecker of a house
You destroyed and broke up a family
I blame my brother too, he was a louse
For being stupid and losing his sanity
He actions broke a beautiful woman's heart
And truly broke her down
And because of that a family was ripped apart
When you started coming around
You will never be family to me
But I dearly love my niece
Don't talk to me, just leave me be
So I can be at peace
Don't expect me to ever accept you
Because you married my brother
But I'll keep quiet, silent and true
Only for the sake of my mother
Those promises you made, all were broken
You said with your slick tounge
Don't expect my house to be open
After this weekend is done
It's bit about you, other people are involved
At this grieving time
For you to think all those problems are resolved
Are you about of your mind?!
Do you think my cousins in law want to be introduced
To the woman who broke up a marriage?
My brother was a moron to give in and be seduced
By someone whose name is disparaged
Don't being your drama to this wake
You're not welcome here
If you have feelings, for everyone's sake
You wouldn't try to come here.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

FORGOTTEN

FORGOTTEN

I have forgotten to care because no one cares for me
I have forgotten to love because no one loves me
I have forgotten to have a soul because mine is dead
I have forgotten every kind word that was ever said
I have forgotten compassion because I'm rotted to the bone
I have forgotten every act of kindness that I have ever known
I have forgotten what it's like to be in the sun
I have forgotten what it's like to be with someome
I have forgotten what it's like to feel a loving touch
I have forgotten it all, I have forgotten so much
All I can remember is the endless emotional pain
And the fact that I'll never find someone who cares again.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

RISE OF THE SUNFLOWER WARRIOR (THE REVELATION)

RISE OF THE SUNFLOWER WARRIOR (THE REVELATION)

Shocked faces and gasps escape in the summer air
They can't believe that she came back here
To stare at her, is something they wouldn't dare
She had them all in a grip of fear
She left broken and defeated but came back standing
All of the trials she went through mad her strong
She slowly walked in the in and went to the second landing
As the singing bard sang his cheerful song
If he was still here, she would find out the truth
The reason why she went through so much pain
She opened the door and he was there, sitting in his booth
But he spoke first before she could explain
"You have come back and I know why
You want to know why you had to leave
You came back a warrior, there's no need to cry
You are so much stronger than what others see
Some may stare, but they won't dare speak up
Because they know of your new power
You have moved forward instead of staying stuck
And this is your triumphant hour."
He said no more but she understood what he meant
She had conquered that unseen beast
The one that's been stalking her in nightmares
As she made her long journey east
And it almost defeated her, she was fully aware
When she saw the truth, she fell to her knees
The sounds of the world faded in the background
She clutched her staff is a death grip squeeze
Until the sounds came back and she was newly found
No longer will she be abused And treated with no worth
She stood up against all of those who tried to bring her down
But they didn't know her connection to the earth
They couldn't see her sunflower crown
She is now a warrior, stronger than ever
There's nothing in this world that will leave her defeated
Her legacy will live on for now and forever As she found the inner strength that she really needed
Her quest is over but her story just begun
She arises to head off to adventure and other lands
She leaves the inn and walks into the sun
With her trusty Naginata in her hands.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WHEN A VIKING CRIES

WHEN A VIKING CRIES

Tears of pain stream down my face
News I didn't want to see come to light
Hard to control this endless ache
When she finally lost her fight
She was brave until the end
No matter what she always smiled
Such a sweet woman and a true friend
She believed in me when I was a child
I can't believe she's gone but never forgotten
But at least she will no longer be in pain
Crying until my tissue is sodden
Teardrops dropping like a downpour of rain
She stayed so strong in the face of cancer
She ended up fighting and won
To die so suddenly, I'm looking for an answer
That can be found by no one
I never had a chance to say goodbye
And that's what really strikes me and hurts
Through the tears, I keep asking why
Are you gone from this earth
Enough tears, time to rise and face another day
Life keeps moving and I must move too
And you wouldn't want to see me this way
But I'm really going to miss you.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

THE DARK QUEEN OF NEWBURGH

THE DARK QUEEN OF NEWBURGH

Tall and slender, walking and looking like a dream
Looking up from my phone, wondering what this means
Beautiful dark skin, she looked like a black rose
She had brown eyes that stared into your soul
Plump lips that had me daydreaming to kiss
I had to wonder what kind of sorcery was this
She had a smile that could melt the coldest heart
She could put back together a soul that's been torn apart
A strong woman, standing tall as she drank some milk
Her long fair hair that shined and seemed finer than silk
Her skin had a glow in the hot summer sun
She had the attention of almost everyone
She deserves respect, and should be treated like royalty
Any real man would give her nothing but unconditional loyalty
And in a few seconds, just like that, she came and gone
But the sweet memories of her beauty still linger on.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DREAM VS. REALITY

DREAM VS. REALITY

The dream would be living in a fantasy world
Where legends of old were told to boys and girls
A beautiful world filled with magic and steel
A world I could live in that I wish was real

The reality is that I'm stuck on a dying earth
Where there is no love and every day gets worse
It always seems like everyone is a ticking time bomb
And I wonder how much longer this madness can go on

The dream would be finally finding someone who cared
To come home from work and she would be there
A woman that's strong and stirs my soul
When I look in her eyes she makes me whole

The reality is there is no one in my life
I'm a lonely loser who will never have a wife
No one could love this ugly face of mine
I'll be alone until the end of my time

The dream would be able to sweep her off her feet
Time would stand still when our eyes would meet
I would finally find the one meant for me
The one who I would think of as I drifted off to sleep

The reality is that we will never ever be
Eyes blurred by endless tears until I can't see
I was so close to happiness and it fell away
This sad reality looks like it's here to say.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

DON'T TELL ME (UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND)

DON'T TELL ME (UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND)

Don't tell me to snap out of it
When you really don't know shit
When you really don't understand
The kind of person I am

Don't tell me that it's all in my mind
When I'm being called ugly all the time
You can't understand how it feels
When words of hurt cut like sharp steel

Have you ever been called an ugly ape?
Words that filled you up with so much self hate?
Words that made you think the worst of people?
Words that made you think everyone was evil?

Don't tell me to get over it, you know nothing about me
I wish you could see what my eyes see
I don't see someone special at all
I just see a loser who's destined for a fall

I don't deserve love, I deserve to be alone
I don't deserve a family, I deserve an empty home
I deserve nothing but this endless emotional pain
Something that I could never explain

Don't tell me everything will be okay
It's just the same old thing day after day
Don't tell me what I should say or do
Because you don't know what I have been through.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone

WORK, WORK, WORK

WORK, WORK, WORK

Day after day, week after week seem to blend together
It seems like the days and nights go on forever
This is my new life, I'm married to my job
Work is my girlfriend, that seems a little odd
It's light when I go in and dark when I go out
All I can think about is opening accounts
No time to sleep, no time to eat
No time to even have a chance to speak
No time to read, no time to write
What has become of my creative life?
No day off, there's no such thing as rest
There must be a reason for this madness I guess
Another long day of work has come to an end
No time to relax, tomorrow morning I'll be there again.
©2013 Darryl Mouzone